only me

2012-01-04T23:01:00.002+08:00

I just love Tricia and esp her stuff. She didn't missed out the make-up guru too.

Thou rooms for improvement, it was not bad.

Plus she was introducing an eye shadow set which i bought and left it aside after one try

hahaha! :p

Yepp. Last but not least, much love from Tricia ~

2011-12-23T22:08:00.001+08:00

Yes, i lied; at least its a white lie.

I just wanna give another chance a worthwhile fight to be the best i can be. :)

2011-12-09T21:39:00.002+08:00

That. Is always our barriers.

That. Always makes me sad.

That. Is something we both won't say much about it.

& i have to accept it, unless . . .

2011-11-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

CHANEL Coco Mademoiselle 2011. Keira Knightley about Coco

Hehe. I had it. Maybe not for some. But I do like the floral scent.

It came strong at first when you spray. It diluted to a soft scent that made me feel like an independent women and yet a small girl.

The "afterwhich" smells is good.

:*)

2011-11-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS !

2011-10-17T02:39:00.001+08:00

S c a r e d . . . . . . .

2011-10-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

拥有。。。就是失去的开始。。。

我，应该拥有他给的吗？

2011-09-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

I was smiling so openly when my in-charge told me

"Extend your probation for another month."

Weeee ~

Hehehe!

& i've got my dhl pay from qk boss! But v little nia. Still money though! ^^.

Have an enjoyable weekends people! =)

2011-09-20T22:09:00.003+08:00

I'm able to cope better today as compared to yest at work.

Which is good.

But my head almost go PIT CHARRRR w all th workload.

It's beyond imagination how many work I am doing for 6 ppl.

- -

Still, I felt honored about it just that I'm so lost at times over which to do first when everything comes under "Urgent."

I will panicked at first.

Then I calmed myself down.

And I did all Urgent matters all after another Urgent.

Even though I'm still doing Urgent work, at least some Urgent work have been done rather than panicking at my seat. Proud of myself.

And I really meant by Urgent is they wanted it this afternoon (times 7 urgent work) .

& it was only work under 1 person. Oneee. Out of sixxx.

& all of them tells me its U-r-g-e-n-t .

I understand why during intern my supervisor likes to put all th responsibility on me.

Bcos I'm productivity & responsive enough.

& I know I am.

But now at uob . . .

I'm not sure.

I hv been doing these & that wrong. & v forgetful.

But everyone still "Jessica~" here, and "Jessica~" there.

My office phone line have been ringing this whole day regards to that blabla.

My hp hv been "deng deng deng" th whole day when I'm working. (even when i haven reply yet)

My office email hv been bombarded w new task to be done asap.

People keep knocking on th door and "Jessicaaaaaa" again.

Everyone got Jessica's syndrome. HOW BAD ! ! !

- -

Just when I thot home sweet home.

My sicko sis was finding fights w me.

All bcos of her panties!

Like fuckinghell and fuckher.

I shall speak no more.

Angry only.

Too tired to stay angry with that sick sis of mine.

Can please some 伟大 guy come and dump her and make her realize that she isn't a spoilt queen in her own world.

I'm sorry if I'm really bad.

But that is just how sick she is that makes me go gaga crazy alr.

I almost strangle her just now.

(All description all purely angry works. DO NOT take it seriously & be offended. Thank q.)

- -

At least there is something to be hilarious about today.

Okie luh.

Not really something joyous thing.

Rather, i should be sad about it. BUT I'M NOT!

Maybe bcos everything else today are worse than this - I have been using the same toothbrush as my brother for the past few months !!!!!!!!!

HAHAHHAHA I KNOW.

Whathe fuckingod right.

I hv been complaining to my mum that someone is using th same toothbrush as me.

Just yest,

I said to my mom that "I VERY confirm that someone used my toothbrush."

When I reached hm today.

I FINALLY REMEMBER to ask my siblings what color is their toothbrush.

My heart almost stopped when my bro said Orange.

My mood at then:

Yes.

晴天霹雳 .

But I can't stop laughing about it.

- -

Last but not least.

*Pray harder for a better better tomorrow !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nights peeps.

=(

2011-09-19T19:39:00.002+08:00

Just reached hm.

Today is a very bad day. Baddddddddddddddd Dayyyyy.

Very very very bad.

Nth goes right for me today. Except that i reached office odd.

Sigh.

& i've got a weird feeling regards to th extension of probation.

Hope i got it through to th next.

*Prayed tml will be a better day !

Look into my eyes

2011-09-04T02:28:00.005+08:00

I was hogging onto Michelle Phan's makeup guru tutorial - Catch my heart.

Instantly fell in love w th background music - Eyes by Kaskade

You're nw listening to th song itself. Enjoy =)

Lyrics:

You and I
Could paint the sky together
As the world goes by
We'll go on forever

Look into my eyes
Eyes are the windows to the soul
Look into my eyes
Oh you will know
There is no surprise, eyes
Because love is plain to see
Look into my eyes
Eyes

Truth is truth
And time can never leap it
This I know
We will always keep it

What are words If they're only for good times . . .

2011-09-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

Overly heavy workload.

Yet i'm more than happy about it.

Whether it's to ease my boredom or not as to think about stuff.

I wouldn't realize i'm damn lethargic only when i stop working & knock off.

That's when i feel super tired. And stress.

I'll wade through all and standing strong.

Not a glass. Fragile and vulnerable.

I will be a steel. Unbreakable and durable.

2011-08-26T20:04:00.003+08:00

H I !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Many of you must hv prayed for me !!!

Cos i got into UOB hr admin !

Heehee.

Thanks alot. (even if nvr pray for me i still wanna say tks!)

Now, i hope to perform well to extend my contract to 3 months & hopefully to bcome a permanent staff!

I know. I will not be late. *Cross fingers.

Thus, dun think i'm going for cabin crew walk-in interview this coming sat.

Oya, which is tmr.

Felt a little relief thou. I hv been kinda stressed up w th cabincrew interview.

Update a little more,

I was thinking of taking up part time degree at this point of time wor.

Suggestions?

An accountant course under ACCA in Kaplan.

Link: http://www.kaplan.com.sg/pqcoursedetail.aspx?id=f8ec908e-2f7f-487f-ad54-8b15ffb3d3bb

I need loadsa advice regards this matter.

2011-08-23T16:10:00.003+08:00

Just came back frm Raffles.

Hope i get the job @ OUB.

Not HR as applied thou, an admin job.

Not $2000 thou, settled at $1800.

Travelling quite fast wan.

Less than 30mins. Shiok. Working hrs are normal. Starting time nt bad.

Waiting at th lounge was quite tormenting.

But once i get started to talk, all my nervousness & scary thots disappear w/o prior notice. =)

This coming saturday . . . Cabin crew walk-in interview.

Hmmm, still going? Or not?

Oya.

I rolled my eyes at a guy who can't stop ogling at me in th train. Cos his girlf was just beside him.

What a garbage.

Tml i'm going jb for some shopping spree w Sissy & Vian!

Gonna, and definitely buying a short black pumps for myself.

Maybe another bag, more practical ones. Hee.

& some formal wears?

Alrightoh,

That's all. I'm gonna catch my Criminal Minds 5 nowwwww!!!!

Byes.

2011-08-15T17:41:00.002+08:00

I realize ...

I'm pretty afraid to take bus or wait at th bustop at night after that 2 incidents.

I'm feeling kinda confused w my own feelings nw.

Maybe i dun really. Maybe it's better liddat. Maybe i'm alr numb frm all pain.

If all maybe has an ans to it, i won't be feeling so vexed by th confusion of my own.

2011-08-09T11:29:00.002+08:00

I remember.

Today is the day when J revealed his feelings for me last year.

& i cried after so long from th break up w jb while finally telling a guy why am i such a person nw.

and the stress and phobia of getting another one.

I broke th phobia & be strong to be w J after much pursuance from hy & wooing frm him.

Who would hv known that one year later, this is the result of my breaking through and being brave to go for it; a stinging bittersweet feeling.

My bro was th one who reminds me when he asked, "Today go watch fireworks ah?"

At first i was vexed.

No one jio me this yr, go ge pi ah.

Then i rmb.

Today is a special day . . . .

2011-08-08T15:07:00.003+08:00

Just yest when i am grateful and relief he did not asked to change the fb status yet.

He asked me today.

My heart was cut.

The pain is indescribable.

I can't stop crying & crying.

& i controlled hard not to drink.

I just changed.

"Married" to jiaying now.

Back to square one.

He seems nonchalent & cheerful about all these.

He seems relief.

I do not know how long I will stop crying & dream of him. I'll wait.

Maybe he do not really cherish what we have been through; he does not seems to care much about our love.

The lucky thing is, at least we are still friends. Underground friends .......

2011-08-07T17:46:00.002+08:00

Just poured myself beer at home.

Yes.

I cried again.

This time, i did not cry bcos J had changed.

I cried bcos I was the one who made him changed.

I am to blame for everything that it is now.

& I am really sorry.

To Jon, to Hy, to my dad and mum.

I hv let them down.

Especially my mum who alr has some expectations from us.

She has been worrying that J will not want me one day.

Now.. I really do not know how to break de news to her.

J did told me "Then dun need to tell."

I'm grateful for it.

At the same time, it's running away from all the trouble and the truth.

My only hope is that he won't changed to someone who he will hate like I do.

He is becoming like a bad boy now. & i really hope he stops.

Bcos no matter how regret I am now, I can do nth about it but remorse.

And I hate myself to the core.

Wishing him all the best for his future and especially his studies.

2011-08-07T14:39:00.001+08:00

吳建豪《有你在》

In my heart:

[太多話，哽在我胸懷。。。]

[有你在，牽手就能取暖。有你在，擁抱就能勇敢。]

[當秘密，被真心揭開。當傷害，我全都明白。]

[如果生命重來，我坦白，你會懂我的愛。]

[如果時間倒轉，有你在，你不喜歡的我會改。。]

Lyrics:

太多話哽在我胸懷
太倔強不要你陪伴
來不及證明的未來
會在哪兒為了我等待

有你在牽手就能取暖
有你在擁抱就能勇敢
如果時間倒轉有你在
你不喜歡的我會改

有你在平凡就不平凡
有你在遺憾就能美滿
如果生命重來我坦白
你會懂我的愛

當秘密被真心揭開
當傷害我全都明白
帶回來回憶和期待
只有你不能被替代

有你在牽手就能取暖
有你在擁抱就能勇敢
如果時間倒轉有你在
你不喜歡的我會改

有你在平凡就不平凡
有你在遺憾就能美滿
如果生命重來我坦白
你會懂我的愛

有你在有你在
如果時間倒轉有你在
你不喜歡的我會該

有你在平凡就不平凡
有你在遺憾就能美滿
如果生命重來我坦白
你會懂我的愛

2011-08-06T11:37:00.002+08:00

On 5 Aug,

I am like losing alot of many good frens at once.

Alicia... Ben... Qinkai... Ronan... Celine... Joel... Norberto... & Jonathan...

All along, i hv been waiting for this day like dunno how many kuku long alr.

Yet, it ends up not as wad i expected.

Honestly, i dun really know how i feel now.

Sad? Not totally. Happy? Confirm not all the time. The feeling is like hanging hanging wan de sia. 50:50 i think.

Had dinner @ The Wine Company (Evans Rd) w my colleagues for farewell dinner.

With Alicia, Qinkai, Ronan, Celine, Joel, Ben, and err his wife.

About ben, i felt guilty man. #fml

& i understand wad he's going thru. Too bad. Alicia & i leave loh! Can't entertain him or give him anymore suggestive solutions.

We're having so much fun & talks till i forget the time.

Cos i am meeting Wilson that IDIOTIC ASSHOLE at 10:10pm over @ ClarkeQuay station!

HAHA!

I was quite nervous lor can.

Cos i jolly well know his character. He sure kpkb me wan. & he didn't disappoint me ==!

He gan me until i, "Fuck you luh!"

I haven drink yet lor. Then made me scold that famous word. Really is deserve it wan.

& i didn't know that when he's drunk he got so violent siaaa!!!!!

and so niang!

I just simply pour him a little bit more of my drink cos mine is freaking mind heavy, then he PUSHED ME SO HARD I HIT THE GROUND!!!!

THEN keep on

"YOU FCUKING BITCH WHY YOU POUR. I TELL YOU DUN POUR ALR RIGHT. YOU BITCH. WHY YOU POUR."

Afterwhich i forced him to drink see see issit that fcuking heavy not. He drank, was surprised not heavy. Then gimmi that shitty innocent face.

Zz==!!!

Tmd bastard. Nw my pretty royal elbow got hurt and scratches and some red red.

FOR NOTHING!

& when i Zirca & Rebel & Zirca & Rebel last night made me realize something.

I am seriously lacking of energy!

I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired alr, thot it's near 4am. See time, walaoooooo why only just 2am nia!!!!!

& i believe i seriously am nw a changed girl.

No interest at all w any guys. Dun feel like getting closed too. That 3 "helpful" guys keep on asking me whether i've hit on any BMW guys (inside joke) , when i said "No" like since we went in until 3am, my ans still de same HAHAHA. Then they trying to help me figure wad sorta guys i fancy.

@ first i really got no idea. Then i said "Muscular, handsome, cute, gentleman, rich."

Practically the WHOLE NIGHT, i am helping them to hitch on girls lor. Kinda tiring. Nw i know how hard it is to hitched girls. Not simpleee!!!!

No wonder guys took great lengths to woo a girl. Cos all play hard-to-get. Then once got it, make her happy till he knows "She can't live without me." and then dumps her no matter how the girl pleads.

Life. This is life.

So i should accept my life right.

And find a muscular, handsome, cute, gentleman, and rich guy (dun tell me extinct alr, bound to hv wan). Normally this type plays hard-to-get. So i shall go to great lengths to make him like me. Realize he can't live w/o me. Then dump him cold-heartedly!!!!!

Heheheheheeeee.

This is life. A better life. =)

OYA!

Yest dine w colleagues they all right. I noticed a bunch of ppl since they step into the restaurant. And you know wad. There's a guy over there is Celine's fren!!!

Celine then told me he is a SQ pilot (OMGGGG).

She then told me that that table is all pilot and air stewardess.

Then she asked me which guy over there i like can tell his fren then intro intro. Heheh.

Like strike lottery sia.

She then keep introducing that guy fren of his to me, she say not bad.

Only got 1 girlf before, now single!

Truthfully, he is not a bad catch. *wink

I really wanted to know him. But my main motive is just to help me get into SIA nia.

Heeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I know i'm bad. But too bad. This is life. *winkwink

2011-07-23T10:14:00.002+08:00

Yest J texted me at 7am+

Last texted me, 7pm+

I was so furious, and disappointed, and sad that i replied him really nasty stuff.

He only asked "what happen?"

And that is it.

Nothing more, nothing less.

Till now, nothing else too.

I just logged into my fb & i saw my dad fb msg me.

He wrote, "Not good for your health. Remember my words always..."

I was about to cry when mama said, "Ur breakfast is ready, faster go eat."

Ya, my "breakfast". She re-heated my yest dinner.

Cos i have not had any dinner last night.

"I hate you." is what i wanted to text him. But i 说不出口 ..

I knew, it was just the opposite way.

& it's only my angry words.

But "I love you", i also 说不出口 ..

Bcos i will feel like an idiot when i felt he has alr changed.

2011-07-22T17:16:00.002+08:00

I wanted to cry so much in the office but i can't.
I can almost taste de tears in my mouth as i swallowed down all the saddness within me.

2011-07-22T03:49:00.002+08:00

I cried inside me when i am on the bus omw hm from work.

The feeling is indescribable.

Soon, i found myself panting and grasping for air when i alighted.

Rushed over to cold storage, bought a 11% Long Island Tea.

Hurried to finish up my dinner so that i can drink dwn my sorrow.

Yet, i hv totally no appetite. Again.

Thereof i only scoop less than half of the bowl of rice. Mama knew things were not right, kept asking me what exactly happened in the most motherly lovey way.

But i'm so sorry. I can't tell. I didn't really know wad's wrong.

Forcefully ate one spoon of rice w a bite of toufu, almost vomited.

Painfully ate another spoon of rice w my fav soup, that's it.

I'm not gonna torture myself to eat when i hv de urge to vomit & seriously no appetite at all.

All i think of is that Long Island Tea in de fridge.

I drank & did stupid stuff.

Make quite a 'scene' on fb.

Kinda regretted nw.

But glad to find out i hv many frens who're concern for me.

Thanks again :)

and............. I called jb.

So so so so glad i did.

Because

(1) I realize he has no influence on me anymore, not even a slightest bit! I even feel literally empty when he told me he is getting married nxt year (w that 3rd party). Seriously like nth.

Though i did not say anything but that is bcos i dun feel anything.

No pain, no sadness, no jealousy, no happy, not even a dots or wadehell feeling or wadever emotion u guys can think of.

I feel void.

It's a joyous thing to be happy about. Very glad ^^.

(2) I am more witty when i spoke to ppl like him. & i realized, he did not change at all. & now i clearly see what my frens hv all told me that he is not a good guy for me. As clear as Jon's perfect eyesight.

(3) THE MOST IMPORTANT AND MOST HAPPY THING IS THAT,

i realize i am v gladful that he had dumped me and went for that girl instead!!!

Cos after talking to him on de phone, i realized how much moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee better my current boyf is man! hahahaha! Seriously very happy sia! Hehe.

So when he asked me, "You feeling better now (after talking to me) ?"

I said "Ok-ok."

HONESTLY.

Feeling sooooooo much better! Cos i realized of so many things as of wad i mentioned above.

Feeling better not bcos we talked.

Feeling better bcos i found out that i hv totally drop any weeny bits of feelings for him, meaning i alr get over him, totally. And bcos i realize how good Jon is bcos of how bad jb still is.

The feeling is.. amazing. Unexpected de amazing.

To wrap things up, though i end up still crying today at night, but the start of today morning is good. With tina's blessing and concern. With Jon's more effort to reply my text more often (and in a more Jonathan way).

Afternoon was just as stressful as usual during work. But Alicia helped me out :)

& nw, she gets to understand how stressful i felt alone yest when wad she did was actually nth as compared to mine.

She has a right in whining at her work too, but i hv went through that before like long long time ago when she was very relax sitting on the arm chair watching video. :)

It's time we share some common stress.

I feel less stressful even though i knew i am responsible for it at the end of the day.

& weird lor.

I am an intern at DHL from RP who gets $440 a month.

She is an intern at DHL from RP who gets $44o a month.

Same supervisor.

But i am doing more. And always the one carrying the burden of "responsibilities".

Hope everyone of you has a greater day than me! :)

2011-07-21T02:23:00.002+08:00

Unfairness at work + heavy workload + Jon is away for camp (& he _________) = Stress + unhappiness = Unstable emotion = Weeping in office when i'm alone = Urge to drink = Butter = Trouble = More cold treatment from Jon = More unhappiness = Cried in the bus = Set to drink.

In de end .....

I was so fcuking tired, right eye so fcuking painful & uncomfortable, sole of my leg so fcuking throbbing pain due to standing on train for 1hr = Canceled butter w fren(s).

Tired & stress & worried till i hv seriously lost my appetite for dinner.

I am so hungry, yet i hv no appetite.

My leg was so painful = Frantically searching for my slippers i always wore at home impatiently = SUPER dulan when i simply can't find it any whr at common spot w my sis shouted at me like a crazy bitch

Yelled & slammed my door hard, shut it.

Cried in my pillow. Practically literally howling in my room.

When mama came to me after her dinner, she had found my slippers (told me my xiao mei went to wear it & put in her rm = wtf feeling). She then asked me what happened behind my closed door. The scenario reminds me back then ......

Wanted to get up to open door for her or at least reply things like "Nth." but i am too hungry, too sad, and most importantly, too tired that i did nth but close back my half-opened swollen eyes.

Till 1:25am i woke and reply text(es), showered, pre-heating dinner now.

Bet i will hv another bad day when the sun rise.

2011-07-20T14:29:00.002+08:00

There are so many things i wanted to say ........

I choose to keep it inside me.

Reminder to self: Stick to my initial principle - Learn to be more independent; noone are gonna stay by me forever.

2011-07-17T04:08:00.004+08:00

URGH.

Why is my pay not yet come! There are so many spree w so many chio things in low $ but i can't buyyyyy

气死我了啦！

A few updates before i head off to watch "My girlfriend is a Gumiho" - a very funny show.

Oh btw, Gumiho = Nine fox tail. A v pretty girl that any guy will get bewitch by her beauty. Once she got hold of him, she will eat his liver. A famous tale in Japan (i think, heeee.)

Gotten "accident" during work on thur. I put up a strong front when someone im not close wif asked me when im alright. Even thou i felt so painful and scary. But when i saw my usually-hang-out-colleagues came rushing over to me, I like a small girl. Senior manager personally sent me to changi hospital. & he shower me w care & concern. Felt so fatherly love from him. Unlike someone, (im not refering to J.)
Jon gave me a surprise today! He turns out to be outside my hse gate w/o informing me any thing! I was so stunned when he called my hse & told me to open the gate. I did get suspicious the previous night when he asked me whether i will be out de nxt day. But he only start texting me de nxt day at 4pm+ when he was meeting his frens at queenstown for dinner at 6pm. So no way is he coming over alr. BUT HE DID! (*Smileeee.) Heeheehee! The main purpose he came over is just bcos he misses me too much (*Awwww). Plus he wants to look at my poor leg during accident at work.
Gotten my 2 pieces of clothes i mentioned on previous post. Guess wad. I think i wanna sell away the bandage skirt i got! Cos it's freaking fcuking hell too short for me neh. I think cover my butt only. I bought it @ $13. Selling it at the same price! (haven worn even once.) So anyone who're really interested. Pls contact me kay! Thanks!

Photo credited to: http://www.ilovelrh.com/ under catalog bottoms.

Waist: 11.5-16"

Length: 14.5"

It looks avg length. So I didn't expect it to turn out so meh short for girls like me.

I personally own a bandage skirt at hm which was longer than this piece. But it was still darn short bcos it will "whip up" when i walk or when i sit. Maybe bcos of my big/flat/round butt. Whichever it is, I am so confirm this more than super short bandage skirt will cost me to lau geng.

So if ure keen or can ask ur frens whether she wants it or anyone who fit this better than i am. Grab it or else I will just churn it one side and collect dust. So let's not waste it kay! Plus, it's a steal @ only $13.

That's all folks.

Till then ..

Much loves,

Jessica

2011-07-13T14:51:00.003+08:00

C R A . V I N G S !

Advitorial: http://www.lovebonito.com/

I am in love!

So much in love w this structured blazer in nude pink by Love,Bonito.

They hv light grey too.

But they are both SOLD OUT!

I was on their mailing list & they just mailed me while i'm in de office nw.

Yet no moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

SGD$45.00 was a little steep for online.

But it was so so so pretty & practical. So the price was reasonable. At least to me. :)

Can wear it to work & or party!

Don't y'all agree w me!?

In weeks time.

I hv bought 3 dresses. (still consider okie right.) 4 bags, 2 clutches. Oh! And another 2 clothes which i believe is on-the-way. Latest by this thur.

Clothes are all cheap to me. Bags & clutches are the one that dig a hole in my pocket man.

Been spending quite a few that i hv to deposit some money into my bank acc just last night so that it was at least more than $500. *Gulp.

Seems like my promise to save up & buy a iphone has been kinda stretched far abit.

Hehheh.

Well, wadtodo!

So little money, too many beautiful things!

Oya.

The mention of it.

Reminded that my internship @ DHL at Expo is ending pretty pretty soooonnnn!

Counting down to 5th Aug.

Can't wait for the last day weeeeeeeee x10000000000!

Too little time , too many things to complete.

Super super tiring but hv to tahan for many stuff.

My weekly log + IIP report + patrick's green warehouse presentation slides.

Sigh.

Especially my IIP report. There are just too many things to write. I can only hope that he dun asked for more stuff from me.

Till then.

Much loves,

Jessica

2011-07-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

July 7, 2011.

Jon went overseas for his ns exercise, again!

This time round is better! Cos nearer! @ Indo, Jakarta.

He had just reported "to be fine" on fb msg to me. But i'd seen it like after he went to slp. Heeeeeeeeeeeee :D

Hope my recent-addictive-to-maple dear is safe & sound for the rest of the days too!

& i silently pray that his exercise was smooth sailingggg. Have been hearing him whine about having so many probs and not much solution to it before he went for indo. *cross fingers.

Went for dinner w sec clique @ Astons in Suntec.

J came along for the last dinner tgt before he flies away.

I am truely happy & glad that he came despite complaining to me how shitty shag he was due to continuous of 2 days guard duty + morning run on that day + indo trip stuff not settled yet and he was consider to be in-charge of it.

I apologize for tina thou.

Cos i realize when im back hm that the dinner was meant for the "catch up" for her. Hehh. Will bu hui for her nxt time round! :)

Jia & J`

We hv been "married" once on fb. Now divorced due to my new found J ! but c how loving we still are! We must be the most loving divourceee hahaha! =)

I'm turning in nowwww.

So sleepy nowadays that my head has been throbbing for dunno how long alr. I can even sleep soundly while i'm standing on the train! omygoodness right. Hv been dozing fcuking non-stop while i'm working on desk. My brain just shut off itself w/o me knowing & i can still con't to type! Haha, i'm so lagi best.

G'nights! *winkwink =)

2011-07-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

Me: Who use my pink pouch!

Daddy: Cannot use meh. Use one day only lar. Why you so selfish one.

- -

*Too dulan till speechless & tired to fight back so i walked away. Like fml.

Next time when robber rob me.

I shall be generous to let him take my stuff w/o my permission.

At least show me some respect and ask me for godness sake.

Fyi, it's not the first time alr.

My birthday waterproof bag was suddenly missing & i didn't realize it till i saw my xiao mei used it for her on-going swimming lesson. Or when she went for swimming. AND SHE KEPT IT IN HER LOCKER! *^&$%#%$#

Mama used my cosmetics w/o asking me when i'm out. I lost it but didn't ask. Then suddenly, mama came to my room & returned me one fine day. And even hint me to buy for her when she nag at me say i waste money when i bought for myself *%^&*^%$#!

I will hv a few clothes missing now and then. And then i realized mama had took it and gave it to my sis to wear! Waddafuck! When i exclaimed. She nonchalent de say "Just lend her lar. Dun so selfish!"

Da bai an ni kuan eh lor.

My bro worse. I lend him one shades which i bought in Thailand and decide to give to my ex (last time, last time) & despite how i wish i can just simply ignore his insincere pleading. He actually broke it during his dancing performance and kept quiet. Then lost it!

I found out myself in his bag wif de broken pieces. When i exclaimed again and asked him. He jing ruan say "Whatever lar. What's the big deal."

Fuckhim.

- -

Come one man.

If i am selfish. Or a loose screw airheaded girl.

I would hv lock up all my stuff in the hse cos everyone of you are like thief sia.

& sometimes i alr knew it but i choose to keep silent and close one eyes.

Everytime niam me say i waste $ buy this and that. But you guys keep stealing it and take it as ur own.

Or everytime i buy this and that. You guys will say it's not nice. But i end up seeing you using it or seeking advice from me. Especially my mama who objects to whatever i wear, she will ALWAYS, and i really mean always, seek beauty advice from me. Even my dad, my sis, my bro, and my xiao mei. Yes, practically everyone in the house ==!!!

When she find everything i wear or buy are ugly. I dun see why she will keep asking me "What to wear. Which one prettier. Help me to choose. This color nicer or that one."

zzzzzzzzzzzzz =.=!!!

Just when i thot they appreciate me staying at home (like finally) ...

2011-07-03T03:14:00.003+08:00

Everytime i visited my close frens blog, I tend to be sad & start tearing before i knew it.

I thot i hv long bcome a cold hearted person after my ex incident.

Little did i know.

I'm still me.

Hy and christina are someone who're close to me for years.

Seeing how struggling they are. Remind of my pity self back then. & how heart wrenching i am. & how terrible i am making ppl around me cried when i cried.

I rmb...... Always rmb.

How my mom sat beside my bed and cried w me.

How sissy came over to my hse & accompanied me thru de night and cried w me too just bcos im too sad and called both xian & sissy up.

How jiaying cried when i updated my blog about my current situation. Or when xian told her.

How naz teared too & was so furious w him when i msned her about my ex cheated me to a hotel, drunk me, and raped me. & then i found out that 3rd party smsed him the next morning like how couples always do.

Even my sis who're always opposing me, she actually wrote letters & put it on our dressing table. Telling me to be strong and take care.

Even my xiaomei who're just 10yrs old. She felt angry too about wad he did to me. And then gave me a i-felt-sorry-for-you face.

How i wasted myself in the club bcos i thot noone else cared about me anymore.

How all my other frens despise him & trying so hard to make me realise it's a blessing in disguise.

& they are right.

It has been 1 year plus. But everything still feel fresh & vivid on my mind.

Especially after i read Tina's blog.

Everything came back. All the sensitive emotions. All the memories.

The saddest part;

I wanted to help her like what my friends did, but i know. Everything still lies in ones believes.

If she could not forget him. She won't get out of this sorrow. Forever.

Even if she did like i do. Look what i am now.

More cruel and insensitive to love ones, yes. Vulnerable, still yes.

In the end, not only will i hurt my love ones, but i myself too.

Lucky thing is, I am fortunate to hv Jonathan.

I hurt him like countless of times. Yet his loves for me nvr shaken.

Just a few days ago, my trust for him has broken bcos of a stupid resemblance action which i experienced many times in the past. Truth is, its just my mistaken.

I hv actually secretly sewed back my heart.

Trying hard to open back to him once again. But i guess. I need to try harder. Bcos i knew, i do not trust easily now.

Wish me best! :)

& my dear frens too..

2011-07-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

I have been sleeping for more than 12hrs today. Like shiok only.

What about your day? ;)

Went for mani & pedi w hy darling last wed. The place looks as if it's designated for spoilt princesses. So suit me haha. -.-

Will upload the photos here the next time when i'm more free ya! :)

- -

Waiting for mama to finish cooking our dinner!

Having curry chicken w crisp potato & there will be durian after that! My life is such a heaven fabricated hahaha. Minus the uncomfortable feeling in my throat ==!

Oya, went for check up last tue. Had xray. Thur collected report, nth bigga deal. Yet, i still feel uncomfortable. Thus doc decided to refer me to NUH ENT for throat scanning.

Beside the uncomfortable feeling in my throat, I hv been like having difficulties in breathing & will get sudden choke in the throat area & causing me to cough non-stop. No worries thou. I seem to be getting better now as compared to last 2 weeks.

Transformer 3 is alr out ! Definitely a worth watching movie. Gonna catch it reallllll soon. Which is like... tmr? Hehe.

- -

Have you guys heard about Cath Kidston?

This brand seems to be getting hot nowadays. I'm not sure whether it's a new brand or it alr existed long ago like others. But it sure is getting it's attention from ppl.

I almost bought a $5/$10 Cath Kidston pouch (to replace my old dirty pouch) to put my stuff in my bag at a pasar malam @ amk there.

Got attracted by the polka dots & it's vibrant blue. But when i look at the brand like any kuku brand w poor stitching of Cath Kidston on the pouch. I decide to drop it back. & did i mention i didn't know the brand at then!? Lols.

Like regretted now!

Cos i realise the poor stiching of the brand is their trademark actually! Wth luh... Zzz-.-! But nvm. I'm sure to get it one day. Cos their iphone casing is prettyae!

Check out this:

Nice eh? Teeheehee.

Plus there are no poor stitching brand on iphone case cos, how to stitch on such a material u tell me. & i saw my fav blogshop owner owns this alr! Urgh. I'm so slowpoke =X

- -

I like it cos it's soooooooooooooo vintage !

Something like this camera ;)

Even my laptop background is filled w vintagy feel ~

Alright! I go hv my dinner alr !

Much loves,

Jess ;)

Updates

2011-06-19T18:17:00.002+08:00

Hello~

Haven't been blogging since ..... ... i dunno when. Shall do a quick update.

Happy Father's Day ! :) P.s.: My dad volunteered at old folks home today at Sembawang ==!
Had crabs yest for dinner! & i had the BIGGEST one. Hehheh. :)
I had super duper zuper bad nightmare days ago & it still creeps me out till today.
Went for casual drinks w J and his frens at somerset Alley Bar. it was an awesome TGIF :)
My ex called me in e midst of my drinking session. Like fml. What the hell is wrong w him.
I can't seem to stop splurging! Hehehe. Shall save $ and buy that goddamn iphone alr -.-

Here i am blogging bcos i can't fb (helping my dad to upload his photos into HIS fb-.-"") and my youtubers are still downloading! :<

This coming tue, my dad & mom are going for their 2nd honeymoon at Thailand, Phuket. Like shiok only.

Hope they hv the fullest max fun over there :)

That's all. xx all of you.

OBSESSION & HOBBY ▶ ▶ ▶

2011-06-12T17:38:00.007+08:00

My recent bad habits are creeping a little out of me lately. Seriously.

Have been so into shopping & online shopping lately! O . M. Ghod.

I dare not calculate how much i hv spent.

& i dun wish to even in near future. Teeheehee! :)

Just this afternoon:

Purchases over 100bucks on hair products & skin care products.

The fortune thing is, my mom paid for me everything! WOOO YAY!

Just yest:

J helped me to transfer $30++ of a vvv pretty convertible dress in Tiffany's Siganature Green for me first cos he was still outside. (k, near to $40 -.-" still sound cheap to me actually hehh!)

I dun selfish, share share w u peeps kay! :)

Advertorial for VGY: http://vaingloriousyou.livejournal.com/

1. Elegant

2. Chic

3. Smooch hot

I hv ordered this too actually. But im too fuck late! Hv to wait for deadbuyers. :<

Please hv deadbuyers pleaseee.................. Heh heh. :)

& since that blog owner are really super shweet and patience to me! Ive bought a black maxi dress from her before. As assured from her, quality is in tip-top condition.

Her stuffs are usually ofs (out-of-stock) like SUPER EFFING fast luh!

I just login her lj.com like mins later after she posted. Then almost everything need to wait for deadbuyers alr. Like wth. All so fast lor.

Wadtodo when she do update in her fb & twitter when she got new collection. & everyone got iphone now. NOT LIKE KUKUNAHDAN ME. I still hv to wait till i got de chance to go online then can order. Abit pekchek sometimes actually. Since her stuff are all good stuff.

Aiya, i speak so much also no use.

Any of you passby my blog now. YOU ARE LUCKY MAN! I actually v selfish wan hahaha! But since i agreed to help her to promote (so many ppl buy alr-.-") after she had helped me in a really great way.

Dun snatch faster than me okie. Cos i also wanna buy too! :)

Kay luh, i shall be more generous yi dian.

Every girl is a girl's best friend when it comes to gossiping.

Every girl is a girl's bitch when it comes to shopping!

So dun blame me okie.

Just minutes ago, i was drooling on this gorgeous already ...

Guess what?

YES. I hv ordered. :D

But the owner seems a little inexperienced. Still considering to whether or not to transfer my money. This wan is damn dirt cheap. I swear.

$15.00 nia can! I alr include postage.

You girls can add her Zolyn Lim @ fb.

All her stuff like giampah cheap. I think suitable for those blogshop who mass orders wan.

But i randomly tian dio. So o well .... :)

I am always darn busy when im at home online-ing.

I dun stop a second.

Just only.

I found this pretty dress. Suitable for me to wear to work/ party after work! (Y)

Advertorial: http://amberavenue.com/

I didn't order. Mainly i think i should stop.

Bcos i still haven revealed that i hv bought a Chanel bag & a LV pouch recently! Heeeeeeeeee *pls dun kill me jon

After i post all these. Sure get scolded from J.

I need to re-stock my wardrobe alr wad.

Okie.

Honestly.

I hv another bad habit.

Once i wore something esp tops or dresses. I dun really fancy wearing it again. Will wear again, but must be diff group of ppl.

It's just my habits, like you guys hv urs. So dun criticizes mine.

I live my own life according to my own rules ☹

& nobody is perfectttttttttt.

Statement of the day:

Being a girl is hard. Being a pretty girl is even harder! XX you guys

Much loves,

ℐess

☺

2011-05-14T17:23:00.004+08:00

One exciting night when i was sooooooooo fcuking anticipating to go ladies night like finally after a long break frm clubbing.

This tanjianhui pangseh me.

Yes, that sec sch tanjianhui.

I waited 1hr for him godamn-knows-it-why at office.

Call, no response. Text, no reply.

He good. He's gonna get it from me, one fine day.

Xtra note that i'm so darm tired after a long day at work. Darm angry bcos of tjh. & darm hungry.

A hungry man is a angry man k.

And it was drizzling when my colleagues drive me to mrt.

Like wth can.

I even gave up drinking w my colleagues bcos of him.

Yet, he fly me an invisible big kite.

Best ttm.

Thereof, after a fit of anger thrown at J instead bcos when i repeated twice, the phone kap twice due to lousy connection in train tunnel.

J brought me to eat Sakae Sushi! if im not wrong. Teeheehee! V sweet boyf right. :p

Was @overeasy (just bside butterfac) w Alan one ladies night. After dinner at sakae sushi, we went to hv a small chat w Erdinger. It's famous for it's smooth taste. To me, nth special. It taste

like other tiger beer lor.

I can't even smile properly due to controlling my abit seh-ness.

My pretty boy who're at jb nw w his buddies :)

I'm seeing him tonight!

Can't wait to pinch him.

See! Doesn't they smile similar!?

My wish list:

A new purse - Prada/RiverIsland/Chanel/LouisVuitton/Salvatore Ferragamo

Watch - Agnes B.

A new bag - Preferably Chanel/Coach.

I hv alr scope down the whole bunch of selection yet i still can't make up my mind!

Sibeh jialat! :/

A new hp - iphone4

(my frens hv all been urging me to change my kuku phone!)

New clothes - Gonna use my f21 40$voucher pretty soon when something caught my eyes hehe.

Can't wait for Mon night!

Heading to Settlers Cafe w J, hy, & gt.

Can't wait for Tue to arrive! Holiday luh! Can slp till song ah! :)

2011-04-13T02:02:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, both of them seems suspicious.

Well well, who am i to judge other ppl when i'm an "experienced" one.

I can only say, goodluck to her.

She is _______. He is a sincere playboy.

No need to touch wood.

Sure won't last long & he will start to find his new target and she will start her crying and emoing and drinking and nonsense-sing.

However!

I'm tempted to ask him bring me go HK play play tooooo! AHHHHH =X

I mean, since he is a hk gia, then everything is simple when he can bring me go hk walk walk, see see, play play, shop shop, eat eat, drink drink, and partyyyyyayyy!

Hehe.

Alicia just back from hk & bought a super pretty outerwear luh, jealous!

& it only cost her S$10 liddat nia, like OMG!

In singa, dat kinda outerwear usually cost about S$60 or S$80++ de.

Haisya.

Dun care luh.

When Sherry really went hk, i must remind her to help me look out too.

Hur hur hur. =D =p =)

fml

2011-04-09T18:34:00.002+08:00

Once my grandma comes to my hse.

Nth is smooth sailing.

Just like back then.

Boyf.. His mum "kind words"..

& now, my aunt they all are coming to my hse.

Wadefuck sia.

I'm so not going to call her later on.

Sigh.

& my internship is starting vv soon.

@expo there.

Yes, wish me all de best.

I 830 hv to report to work alr. GG like god-damit.

But nxt week hv to report to sch for dat super lame training.

It doesn't hv anything to do for my internship stuff lu.

It's all about wad resume writing, business etiquess, personal grooming and da bian stuff luh.

Okie, that's all for now.

The thot of them coming later jiu totally wrecked my alr moody mood.

Shiat.

幸福

2011-03-18T03:09:00.002+08:00

范瑋琪 - 最重要的决定

I keep replaying & replaying & replaying.

Each time i replayed, i can't help but felt so touched, and warmth, and cried le...

It's a song that was specially made for 范范bcos she was going to get marry to 黑人
this coming May.

They are really sweet until cannot.

When she sang it for 黑人 while hands wif him on Kang Xi Lai Le, the 2 most cold blooded host jing ruan cried le.

Yes, i was talking about the crying Xiao S & that Mr Kang.

& they dun only wept, they cried until they can't speak properly. It's really touching..

(I suggest) MUST WOR, play this song & bless the newly wed couple an eternal love. =)

我常在想應該再也找不到

任何人像你對我那麼好

好到我的家人也被照料

我的朋友還為你撐腰

你還是有一堆毛病改不掉

拗起來氣得仙女都跳腳

可是人生完美的事太少

我們不能什麼都想要

你是我最重要的決定

我願意每天在你身邊甦醒

就連吵架也很過癮不會冷冰

因為真愛沒有輸贏只有親密

你是我最重要的決定

我願意打破對未知的恐懼

就算流淚也能放晴將心比心

因為幸福沒有捷徑只有經營

Another not bad song by FanFan is 暮光, her newest song too.

Chi pop fan can check it out, you guys won't regret, for sure.

i chop chop my heart. Teehee.

Blackie's proposal to FanFan at NBA's court link is here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kbc4agsdoo&feature=related

i dunno why i can't embedded it to here but if interested/ KPO, take a look bah.

V enlightening. =)

Alright, another song 傷日快樂 but diff singer, 張韶涵, this song is for heart wrenching ppl luh, but NOT BAD wor! Hy darling, u sure love it. =)

May everyone be happy & blessing wor.

*Muacks =3

I NEED YOU PEOPLE!

2011-03-17T04:52:00.003+08:00

Changing a mood; Shopaholic swings!

Teehee.

I hv no idea whether ppl around me notice this one little thing - I damn damn loveeeeee accessories.

I just think that a simple white top/ black dress can hv so so so so loadsa many image or style once i put on diff accessories.

It is just simply one word to put it across; FUN !

Hehe. :D

The following models are my fav lovelies korean gang: T-ara.

*Admirable ~

I am so admiring at how they pair off each diff piece tgt w/o looking so wrong.

So ohm. So dope.

My dear fren, Sherry, are having a Forever21 spree right now.

I have so many things listed WANTED on my list!

& they are coming are cheaaaaaaaaaaap.

After opening many tabs do i realize that they are all in US$ ==!!!

Nevertheless, it's still affordable luh after i excel it.

I wanna get at least one! I dun care.

When i spend, i feel better.

I only have one favor to ask from you guys ~

Help me choose from these 2 kkies!

Heeeeee:D

If any of u r keen/ itching like me in the F21 spree, do let me know.

I'll send you de link(s).

She's my poly trusted kind & pretty & petite & trendy fren, so maybe when you buy, i can collect it personally from her tgt wif ur stuff (if there is any). You know right, can save postage fee. =)

1) Shimmering Rolo Chain Necklace - US$7.80 ~ S$13.53

2) Statement Piece Necklace - US$9.80 ~ S$16.23

Do feedbacks. kthkxbye.

Bluey Insecure.

2011-03-16T20:45:00.002+08:00

I'm sad.

I'm down.

They ripe me off my ordinary life.

Big, fat, liers, i hate them! Robber!

I believe our family will have to get use to such a life for some time.

For now, i only know that i felt naked w many big parts that played in my life for so long will be gone by 26th March.

Ineedajob;

Hallaluyah.

Breather Needed.

2011-03-10T17:32:00.003+08:00

Today,

i am absolutely in a v high emotional state. & i dunno why.

The moment i wake up at like, hehe 445pm,

i look at my phone, and i felt pissed off.

Text jon about some nonsense msg and i dun feel any better.

I was so pissed when he didnt reply me back, fast.

When i was brushing teeth, my bro asked me to hurry up cos he wanna shower.

I was not happy about it.

The nxt thing i knew, i was quarreling w my sis

Then when i was cooking for lunch, my bro asked me to hurry up AGAIN cos he wanna cook meggie.

Just liddat. He have the ticks on me, and i blew up, quarreled w him as well.

I still dun feel so good, so i check my phone, maybe when i saw Jon's text i will feel better.

But nah.

I still feel de same even though he texted me the sweetest thing.

I seriously dunno wadssup wif me & i tear a little.

Maybe when i really needed some drinks like yest ladies night which i cancelled myself, i should really head out and have some drinks.

I am all so blueeeeeeey now~

So.. vulnerable.

The next thing i knew (like again==""),

i was laughing at my POSB letter.

The thing is, it was a bad news letter.

Haha?

Feel like smacking myself.

The good girl, bad girl.

2011-03-08T02:38:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i really do wonder, whether it's ok not to have "them" in my life.

Sometimes i really do regret for being such a i-dun-care attitude that makes everything now such a haze.

At times like this, i will start to say to myself.

"It's okie. When we meet, all doubts will be answered."

The thing is, each time i start to feel heart wrenched to be a cold person once i see my fren(s) & starts to forget everything bad about that person & starts to being like so close ever wif that person again.

Dang.

Should i be a stronger bad person?

Or just stay as weak as now which you guys deem it as a better girl.

BOO-YOU-AWHILE

2011-02-24T14:20:00.002+08:00

" Friends are those who standby you when you are wrong. Almost everyone will standby you when you are right " ~Mark Twain

I think i should apologies for throwing a fit yest on the blog.

It was, nonsensical childish.

Ben posted this on fb earlier on & when it registered to me, it reminds me of just two solely people who have been very supportive for me in whatever crazy stuff i did or how bad the times is to be around me, they never left me all this while; Jon and Hy.

My two best friends indeed.

I think i would like to do some enlightening, hehe.

Friends who knows you well are those who are willing to standby you when you are wrong. Friends who do not know you well enough are the one finding faults whenever possible they can.

~Jess`ca

I got this little enlightenment base on my experience in life.

Any feedbacks, do keep to yourself. :)

Thanks peeps,

I still love you guys no matter wad.

To her,

I'm so so so so so so sorry.

I should have been less selfish and be more encouraging during ur practicum.

Bcos i do not want to be friends who do not know you well enough, i am just throwing my tantrum like i always used to.

Sigh.

Why am i being such an ironic person even at a place i-tell-my-most-heartfelt-words here.

Be strong girl!

Oya.

Last night at ph was so darn tiring omfg!

& i still have to entertain like quite a few of gangs of chiongster.

Consider alot of friends last night.

I think i'm old-er.

I think too long didn't dance already.

I think i need to do more exercise.

My stamina has been from weak after i graduated from secondary sch to now almost zero sia! Omgomgomg. Anyone wanna do some exercise wif me? :*)

Conclusion of last night clubbing:

- Do more work out in the near future.

- Drink a little jiu scared drunk; symptoms of old-er? *Shake moi body. Eeeeeyer!

- I felt so familiar at ph last night yet so strangely unfamiliar; the PROOF of me not visiting clubs recently.

HIHI FOLKS.

2011-02-23T15:02:00.003+08:00

Alright peeps, long time no see.

& here, i'm gonna whine just when i start to write again after like so long.

Nevertheless, i really have no one to talk to about this.

I know i should by now, be numb to people who are like her, it's not as if i nvr met such an incident before. It was so much fun and joy and almost everything blooms when we club tgt. But as times passes and we stop for awhile, things changed.

I'm not pretty sure why it was always my frens who r de one that r changing but well, girls who are attached are pretty much like this, ain't they?

Even so, i tried my best to pull my frens, close or not close or wadever, for her that night. & things just dun go well.

In de end, i have no choice but to go wif ppl whom i'm not really comfortable clubbing with but i had alr jio-ed them just bcos she said, "I am feeling low, i want to drink." In the expense of getting a lecture from Mr Ho.

& frens whom i jio-ed that night dun seem really please wif me.

AND Mr Ho was like kanna-force to go wif me. & he isn't happy as well.

In conclusion: That night was kind of a bummer.

And so on.......... I just dun wanna dig more out anymore, suddenly felt it's so pointless to say all these.

Maybe i'm just not that kind of fren whom people will like to stick to me even after a "short break", but i am.

In short, i will just jio guys in the near future to club if that is so, alright.

No more rejection from my close frens, i have enough.

You guys should know i dun like being dumped & left alone.

So i guess it's time for me to move on and find new ones.

Isn't it always, "Friends come, friends go." theory?

It is so true. Whoever thought of this is such a genius! *Muacks.

Having said so much, I'M GONNA PH LATER ON TONIGHT !!!!!

Bye! ~~

I act like a bimbo bitch right now.

Whatever ok.

I don't care so much already.

Think as you deem fit.

*Tmd furious & buoy song.

2011-01-20T12:48:00.001+08:00

*wipe wipe wipe.

Okie, it's free from spiderweb and dust now ~

Super long didn't update le, i shall update the most recent stuff.

Jon went for a 8am operation at Khoo Teck Puat Hospital (KTPH) today for a lump around his throat area.

Risk involve i shall not say, i dun wanna ttm.

Initial plan:

Staying for one night after operation.

Plan changed due to his sleeping habits:

I am fetching him after his operation when i leave from sch around 12? 1? 2? 3? 4? Aiya wadever since he haven replied to my any text/ inform me any further notice which he promised )):

Current plan due to nurse coaxing and persuasion for complicated issues that MIGHT occur after operation:

Stay for at least a few hours till doctor approved of discharge.

Super worried & anxious & worried for him.

The operation has delayed but it's 12:38pm now, still no notice from him.

Is he alright? I 祈祷 that he is ~
*.* ~

J reply me asap wor, i am waiting to go fetch you/ visit you. ★..★

2010-12-15T00:28:00.002+08:00

ღ

Had a tiring long day.

So i shall have a short post!

In short, i thot i was being compromising, but it turns out that i am sooooo not! considering!

Blaaaaaaaa.

unnecessary misunderstanding are all create by the bad cruel naughty miscommunication.

Boohoo!

Oya.

I've come across a vvvvvvvvvv interesting fb status.

" I want a REALationship, not a relationSHIT. "

Hahaha!

This is good shit man!

Super amusing yet idiotically true luh!

Alright before i sleep, share wif u peeps some interesting photos, tata!

♡ ♡ ♡

i dun really know how to depict this photo's concept.

but i guess the photographer just wanna play around wif the similar shape?

Water droplets, cool concept hur ..

I WANT TOH LE GOODNIGHT PIEPLE

TMR GONNA CRUSH LADIES NIGHT AT BUTTERFAC !!

PLEASE NO MORE SUDDEN POLICE RAID IF NOT I WILL DRINK MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

*cross fingers

Toopid drug people.

Nights !

♡

2010-12-11T04:34:00.002+08:00

ღ Christmas is just round the cornerrrrrrrr

*screamszxcv.

Kinda excited & looking forward. :) It has always been a good fun ooo day for me.

Hope it did it again~

Just watched Narnia 3 at AMK Hub wif Jon.

Amazing show i must say.

Afterwhich, i was loitering around shops and looking around for an outfit to wear for our upcoming Xmas party.

The theme is to wear in Blue & White.

I dunno whether issit purposely de but thanks ah! Wahahaha! My fav color sio !!!

I am actually finding for this look!

Naise righttttt i know. =)

Simple, chic, a sense of high-end classic and a taste of boyish yet feminine elegant.

Oya.

Before i head to bed.

I have been up till now is bcos of one and only one reason.

Not bcos of my show or game but i'm actually putting my heart into doing something for the Xmas party game! I have been doing it for about 5hrs alr. All the spacing and wordings and nice place to put this&that and choosing the right words to use........................

Well well, i dun deny i am a super duper a lazy person.

But once i start with something, i put my every single soul and heart to do the best out of it.

Hope they find it gorgeous

✿◕‿◕✿

Those who visit my blog, you are lucky to have:

The PREVIEW !

HO HE HA

M E R R Y AD V A N C E C H RIST M A S PEOP L E !

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¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨*♥*o*

¨¨¨¨¨¨¨***o***

¨¨¨¨¨¨**o**♥*o*

¨¨¨¨¨**♥**o**o**

¨¨¨¨**o**♥***♥*o*

¨¨¨*****♥*o**o****

¨¨**♥**o*****o**♥**

¨******o*****♥**o***

****o***♥**o***o***♥ *

¨¨¨¨¨____!_!____

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2010-12-07T09:56:00.002+08:00

Hmmm ... ... ...

It's better for me to just keep quiet and dun ttm.
Ain't these kinda nightmares kind of a monthly routine for me alr?
What i should do now is to have faith and confidence in J.Ho:)

As for M.
after seeing his fb, i know how he feels but i can only say i am truely sorry.
the only 'best' thing i can do is not to reply you, anymore.
Btw, thanks for the Utters ice cream, they doesn't taste nice for me as much as u like.
Last thing, pls forget everything & dun ever try to sabotage again.
Goodbye my fren.

As for A.
err ok i can only say sorry too =="
& sorry for lying to him all the time, esp the bday hahaha! (oops.)
But well, i dun meant to but he keep forgetting and keep on asking me for de dunno how many freaking times alr.
& he actually really went to bought that for me, tsk. Silly ah:x

As for my darling.
I know this will just fall on ur deaf ears but nevertheless i still wan to say!
Please stay more focus on ur studies and stop thinking too much.
Things will fall to it's own place, same goes for ur heart.
You will be landed in a more beautiful place than now..

Okie i think that's all for now.
Busy december is coming ~

2010-12-06T14:36:00.002+08:00

Keeping Silent

We keep silent at times when we are too sad, too pissed, too close, or simply too tired to even bother to think of anything.

- - - -

Too Sad To Speak Any.

When i am too upset or extremely disappointed and choose to bottom down everything by myself bcos i am just so so so speechless.

Too Pissed To Continue Conv.

It is when i realize that it is senseless and basically wasting of time & breath talking to an idiot.

Too Close ...

Irony but it is kinda pathetically sad when partis dun have any much common topic to talk about anymore, not even rubberishing. Just bcos we have talked everything under the moon that we r suppose to share with or we know one another too well that words are redudden. Just a glance, or "ahem", or a wink and etc..

Too Tired ..

Do i have to say more? Just wanna be lazy, stone, shut the brain and mouth up and sleep.

A random thots in sch while it was so rare for me to have some spare time to go for the toilet poo pooing. Wahahahaha! =D

But ain't i correct?

Quotes of the day:

Sanity calms, but madness is more interesting.

~ John Russell

2010-11-23T03:54:00.002+08:00

While waiting for Gossip Girls Season 4 ep 10 to be out, i went to catch another show le.

A Taiwanese show call The Fierce Wife ..

I thot it's a comical show and the male lead's character just feel like Jon's luh..

So sweet and clever and thoughtful and forgiving..

& most importantly, very loyal.

Just on Ep 02, something with the female's lead cousin and the male lead has "a leg" ==!

And the male lead starts to ................

Aiya. It turns out to be a sad show jiu dui le lar.

Tsk.

Yiu shi about the guy cheated his wife story.

*shake head .....

& i see all the similar "starting to cheat" patterns jiu make me cry.

All guys are the same lar.

2010-11-21T17:59:00.006+08:00

I was flipping thru their dance concert album.

They are all so pretty dressed up!

So nice work done over there.

I bet their concert went smooth~

Paiseh le ppl, i didn't able to make it for the dance concert to give a support girls.

& i miss dancing !!!!!

& esp hanging out with them.

will find some time to do it again!

And i saw my fyp photos at the right side while im at their concert album.

Ahhhhhh~

I certainly miss all those days..

I sure whine alot during those tough periods and many bad times, but sure it is, there were pretty good times too!

2 of our fyp presentation went soooooooooo well that the 1st one was being selected to be on the opening of RP booth for our course.

The second one was as tedious as the 1st one to be. And we are so excited and anticipate to get select to be the best one but well..... There were others that are better.

It was ok.

Bcos we have did our best & all our facilitators praised our work when they saw us.

I am proud to say that both our FYP projects are quite "famous".

Everyone has been talking about it, knew about it, and being positive about it.

**Nostalgic ~

my team mates; Eugene, Hazel, Vian, J`, Ron

`many of them said i look damn like an air steward when i dress up this formal. haha!

their praise made me fluttering all inside me.

Our faci who guide us throughout our 2nd FYP

Our faci who guide us throughout our 1st FYP =))

joey, jiajia, j`

j`, mazuin! & vian

I rmb i took like zillion of photos that i stopped smiling when i took photos with people.

So *$%%#&% tired!

I only select a few from Eugene's album. Imgaine there are like more than 5 albums. Each having thousands of photos.

But looking at all of them now... makes me feeling a tinge of mixed feelings.

You guys know bah, that happy & sad feelings.

i have missed them:) loads!

Jon will be back this coming thur!

woohoo!

*Anticipate

2010-11-21T02:47:00.003+08:00

Ben Montague - Broken

But I'm here if you need me

I know you don't believe me

And I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused

For the pain I've caused..

Full Lyrics at ~ http://artists.letssingit.com/ben-montague-lyrics-broken-75l8g4r

Jon,

every time i hear your voice, i hear another reason to keep you forever.

Jess

2010-11-18T01:06:00.002+08:00

I was so so so down. Especially now.

I had all these patches of bites that itch so much i just feel like screaming YET i have to withstand scratching !

They do not stop or disappear when i wake up each morning. Instead, i find new ones !!!!

And jon was not around with me now.

I had nightmares.

Wee doesn't come looking for me now for lunch at sch.

I have to pretend i am so busy and lied to my classmates that i am waiting for my fren for lunch.

It was so humiliating & embarrassing to ask either him or my classmate to acc me for lunch.

Hy doesn't listens to me. No matter what advices i gave. She is just, "No, it was not him." And bla bla blaaaaa. I felt so hopeless and i see how as foolish i am back then.

I went into the wrong class for test. My invigilator rushed out to get me a chair only to find out i am not in that class. It was so embarrassing !!

There are ppl in that class who knew me! Omg ....

I keep coughing, i keep having flu.. i keep shivering bcos i am cold but i m sweating for goodness sake!

I have to go for an injection this coming sat for my irritating fucking bites!

Urgh!!!!!!!!!

I can't wear any shorts or mini skirts or flattering dress anymore.

I am so morally low and i blame everything, i scolded anyone in my family that cross my path or when they dun help me for a small request.

I get all so fed up easily AND THE BITES ARE STILL STINGING-LY PAINFUL AND ITCHY WHILE I AM STILL FUCKING HELL WHINING.

*Sob..........................

go away.. i dun need any one.. i just wan my bites to go away !!!!!!

)))))))))):

2010-11-16T00:19:00.006+08:00

My beloved fren of mine have once made me tear again ..

"Fate chooses your relations, you choose your friends."
- Jacques Delille (1738 - 1813) French poet.

So why are you struggling so hard with all the options laying right before you.

You know what's right, what's wrong.

What is true, what is not.

What to do, what not to do.

But you always tend to let ur idiotic stupid foolish-iest heart to take over ur cleverness.

In return for what.

Indecisive checked.

Unstable emotions checked.

Throwing away loadsa opportunities checked.

"Willingly" getting fooled checked.

Why bother choosing option "A" and "B".

It should be EITHER "A" OR "B", or NEITHER OF BOTH !

Just like the ans "Yes" or "No".

Firm & steady and most importantly, very clear.

You love him, but ...............................

Yet ........................

And then .....................................

Of cos it will be nothing.

One hand cannot hold hand, two hands does.

Him getting loved by you.

That's why ................................................

So ............................................

Eventually ........................................................

Of cos it will be something.

An idiot cannot plays idiot unless a fool helps him.

"True happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice."
- Samuel Johnston

So if ahem x2 doesn't wants to be fren anymore wif you (even though 5 years alr..)

What's the point of keeping if he do not give you the rights and choices for your own.

He (longer than 5 years.......) is selfish for himself.

Ahem x2 (5 years.......) is selfish for himself too.

If you allow them to be selfish for themselves, who to blame for your own troubles in heart?

No one, or you ?

2010-11-15T16:32:00.003+08:00

Today monday right.

NO SCHOOL FOR ME AGAIN =D

I ming ming set alarm at 7am YET I HEARD NOTHING !

Mama morning called me once & i didn't hear any kuku ringtone.

I asked her why only called once she told me "I scared if i call hse number, ur sis will wake up.."

Hur ?!! Wth !

What else can i say beside sian-ing. Win already lor.

Then i wanted to go see poly clinic. She told me bb cheaper ==!!

Where ever de poly clinic will eventually charge the same price for similar case wad.

I was so sick i dun even feel like arguing wif her anymore.

& i head to bb's.

٩(×̯×)۶ ٩(×̯×)۶ ٩(×̯×)۶

I should have something to eat first before i go clinic luh. But i wanted to end fast.

I reached at 12:30pm.

Registration only starts at 1:30pm, ho sei -.-

Finally after registered at counter,

Doc will only come at 2:00pm, song bo =X

Plus the queue and everything, i almost half dead from hunger alr ==!

You guys must be thinking "fake sickness" right. I just go take mc nia.

Wrong !

Last thur after i toned at HY's hse i got a bite.

Initially i thot it's that normal stupid mosquito bite, one patch nia.

After scratching for like 1 day, it grows 4 more bites.

After 2 days,

~ my right thigh got 8 bites.

~ left thigh only 1

~ left arm got 3

~ wrist got 1

~ palm got 1

Friday's pig leg - Swollen

Saturday's leg - Bigger and reddish

Seriously fuck.

I wrote alot of stuff and it didnt save properly.

Now i just forgotten all the things i have just written.

Great.

Oya.

I didn't went to see doc just bcos i kanna unknown bites.

I fell sick the next day i had bites.

Bad cough, irritating to max de flu, and i keep shivering to coldness this morning.

I touched myself, but i only feel that i am freezing cold.

I told doc, he told me i have no fever.

But i keep shivering under normal fans, when im in air-condition room, i tell you, i can shiver like im in north pole.

I can shiver and sneeze even under the sun.

Weird. ¯\(°_o)/¯

Anyway.

The doc asked me whr did i went to, i replied him sheepishly that i went to my fren's hse.

He smiled and "Oh...." and nod head.

I think i just given him the wrong idea.

Wtf sia. Didn't i went to HY's hse. HUI YI LEHHHH ....

He asked me when was the last time i had my menses.

I was shocked .

I nearly just spit out my most truthful answer, 'I dunno.."

But i changed it to, "My period doesn't comes in periodically manner "

He prescribed me pills to stop the itchy & a bottle for external use.

& 2 days of MC woooohooo !!

Seriously, that liquid in the bottle smells like an Art Room !

No kidding.

Riddle of the day:

What gets wetter when it dries ?

Ans on next post !

Love me, love me not.

xoxo

Jess`ca

2010-11-15T02:44:00.002+08:00

Okie.

Before you guys scroll further i wanna say something first.

I think only minor of ppl such as Hy, or sometimes Pala will visit my blog.

So i will just heck care & truthfully let's be more open-minded kkies.

I mean ...........

Come on.. It's alr 2010 guys.

Sooner or later ppl will say u r sua gu if ure still a wooden block.

It's purely just curiosity about the results that made me do this kinda quiz.

The result are..... well.... you guys ownself think whether it's correct uh, can dun need to tell me haha i am a shy girl u know i know right

*wink wink

If you r CURIOUS too u can try it out =D

Link: http://www.psychjuice.com/sa/sa.php

Btw, i am getting sicker.

My *&$%$@% bites on my thigh and other area of my body is fcuking hell itchy & at times painful.

So nowadays u will see me wearing looooooooooong pants le [@.@]... [T.T~]

I have been trying hard to get rid of these 2 probs so no worries k!

I am Jess Ong !

Nights !

2010-11-13T01:05:00.001+08:00

周杰倫雨下一整晚 MV

Super touching & sad.

I get all the "chicken polka dots" le luh ..

2010-11-10T13:51:00.002+08:00

HOT HOT HOTTT !

**.** ~
i lurve him luh!

especially his bod.
(Y)
=DDDDD

I'm meeting up wif HY, Yan & longtimefnosee de jodie
for a ladies night at butt fact.
"RAH RAH RAH RAH RAH RAH" ~

2010-11-10T02:32:00.002+08:00

YOU GUYS SHOULD CHECK OUT

www.clicknetwork.tv

I AM SO ADDICTIVE TO THAT WEBBIE NOW.

SUPER HILARIOUS LUH !

(Y)

I'm watching "Chick Vs Dick"

by Paul Twohill & Kay Kay go head to head in a battle of the sexes.

KayKay super chio & sweet & ok-somtimes-really-crude but FUNNY :D

Do i have to say more how funny Paul 2hill is?

Just the thot of his face can make me laugh alr =D

And thern uh ..

Budget Barbie also not da bad luh.

Her eng is super sound-alike like ris low only that she is chioer & skinner & more fashion sense.

She has a blog who has kinda quite number of follower too. (i guess..)

*shrugged.

Anyway.

I MISS JEANICE LUH !!!

hahaha!

OK I KNOW RANDOM BUT WADEVER OKKKKKK.

I DUN CARE I JUST MISS HAVING HER IN CLASS & BESIDE MEEE:D

Suave? Cool? Cute right?!

That is why i love her man!

I did invite her over for TheStudio makeover thingy wif me

But i think her gf is eating vinegar feeling threat from me uh that's y ask her not to go ):

Wa liew.....

Not as if i will snatch her from her.

Anyway, i still miss her & i'shall be understanding!

Finally made an effort to go check jon's fb msg.

Oppsie.

Didn't return his 2nd & today he had send the 3rd one.

Just as i was going to click reply.

J.Ho msn suddenly "deng deng deng" on my laptop screen.

At first i thot it's just an illusion but when i go click it

IT WAS REALLY HIM!

*mouth hanging.

The whole point for bringing this up is bcos.

I WAS SO SWEEEEET TO DRAW UP STICK MANS YET HE CANT RECEIVE wtf.

Prove.

I didnt "Jessica is writing.." and then nth comes out.

I was doing something yet it is fruitless!

SUA LUH

No next time alr :D

Studying for tmr's ut~

I will reply his fb msg on thur i guess!

2010-11-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

Woots!

Just did my RJ !!

Met up with Jia & Shane after my sch hrs at AMK hub for Pepper Lunch.

HEHE.

I had beef !

(for the 2nd time in my entire life and more to come~ *Amituobo amituobo ..)

Wa liew.. Xian was like "haha! Whatever~ " when i told her i need to rush hm to do my rj.

Kns.

Wait till when i have SCHOOL HOLIDAYS then see who will have the last laugh!

HEEEEEEE:D

My team-mates are kinda fun today!

I LIKE! La la la ...... [i'm late today hehe .. ]

They were soooooo welcoming me when i haven even sit down on the armchair.

Hellos and smiles were everywhere.

Faci too!

Well.. bcos he was my relief faci for a few weeks during my batch years & he had a pretty good impression of me before i ...... lol lol ;p

& they asked, "Jess, you are very hardworking. How come u didnt come for this module lesson for the past few weeks? "

Hehh ...

"Heee. Well.......... *trying to stall time while thinking of perfect excuses! "

"I'm sick for a few days ."

One of them said, " LAZY RIGHT ! "

" YA LAR ... "

HAHAHA==!

zzzdots. Rp-ians nvr fail to be direct.

This week and the following weeks will be kinda hectic for me ~~

T E S T

- 10/11/2010 (this coming wed-.-) : Operations Planning II [most tedious mod]

- 16/11/2010 Tue : Distribution & Transportation [today's mod lu..]

- 19/11/2010 Fri : IT for scm

[OYA IVE GOT "A" FOR MY 1ST LESSON AFTER MY 3 ABSENTEES WAHAHAHA! JON, I TOLD YOU ALR, THIS FACI GOT THE JESS'S SYNDROME !!!

- 22/11/2010 Mon: Facilities & Planning

- 23/11/2010 Tue : Physics

(Liew.. Issit just before the day when Dr. Ho is back from aussie ==!! ....)

Events to go !

- Have to acc HYdarling to Anime Cosplay events.

- Promised movies accompany with a few frens.

- JB trip to go.

*Can i really dun go for the CJ dance concert?? *.* Dun psycho me further.. My pocket hole is getting BIGGERRR!

**& JIAdarling.. Universal Studio can wait luh. Really really... :x

Birthdays party to attend !

- Upcoming ones: Vian's

- Joey & Jieyu falling on the same day

- My xiao mei & sister's

OYA !!!

I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO BE IRENE'S BRIDESMAID !!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER EXHILARATING & ANTICIPATING DE.

*pray.

May everything goes smooth sailing for her and us! =D

Oh ya!

When im at marsiling dr. waiting for my 2nd bus to sch,

there was this guarantee 100% chop chop malaysian guy he kept on staring at me.

I swear i caught him many times.

He just kept looking & looking & looking AND LOOKING at me.

Irritating to max can!

&*%$#@*#$ Tmd.

Feel like gorging his eyes out.

Seriously is uncomfortable & i super dulan .

Sorry but i fucking hate malaysian guys especially after my encounter wif my ex.

& he still trying to act one boarding the same bus as me.

standing right infront of me in the queue and turn and just boldly checking me out.

WTF !

Then he walked off after that.

Dun wanna take that bus still chap my queue.

Nehnehbeh.

Go look urself in the mirror

Sorry uh peeps.

I seriously dun like msian guys.

Not that i am country-cist but

i have many images popping out the moment i see msian guys even just by hearing ppl talking in msian accent.

All the jiatbalang bad memories and phobia of many things pop out like nobody business.

When i board down the bus from amk at my hse bustop,

that malay guy who sat beside me earlier on in the bus wave goodbye while smiling at me.

Errr ....

YO.

WASSUP WITH ME & CHOCO LATTE SKIN HUR !?

Photo Puzzle

2010-11-07T03:31:00.002+08:00

❤

I went for dinner with my frenssssss whom i vvvvv long nvr meet le.

& i was glad i went for the pizza.

The talks with them were all so fun and enjoyable and humourous !!!

Hahaha!

I like!

After back hm,

i turn on my fb & i saw 2 messages.

I was hesitating whether or not to open up (cos normally i wont, lazy hehhh..)

BUT I WAS SO GLAD & RELIEF I DECIDED TO TAKE A PEEK!

JONATHAN HO SEND ME A MESSAGE FROM AUSTRALIA!!

=DDDDDD

Sia lar!

It was ubber not-kidding de long man!

I LIKE =D

I thot SOMEONE told me

"Dun worry luh. 3 weeks very very fast jiu over already.."

"Dun think too much.."

Well well ....

Seems like SOMEONE out there in the aus is doing EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE WAY.

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!

No worries ok.

I didn't club tonight.

& i am missing you too.

Wondering whether u will be doing that "Day 1, bla bla bla. Day 2, bla bla bla" thingy.

But i rmb u said u will be busy so i dun think so!

My blog was NOT EMO.

Hy even said it was mushy le lor.

You ownself emo lar u.

Shoo!

Dun let ur emo-ness influence me.

Since u have a surprise for me.

I shall have a return!

JONNY SOLVE THIS !

P.S: Dun gloat when you have solve it.

It's in the easiest mode!

HEHEHEH.

2010-11-05T06:00:00.002+08:00

I have a sudden craving for clubbing and especially drinking.

Reminiscent those late nights when i go super crazy and totally out of control without feeling any guilt or a need to apologize to anyone.

Just one sentence,

"I am drunk that night "

Solves everything and anything to anyone that night without further explanation.

To be honest, it is irresponsible to max i agree, but it felt really awesomely good !!!!

I seldom club now.

It has been like more than a month i haven been to any club !

Am i still jessica ong ?!

Drinking ........ ...... .......

Here and there at times.

Like once every 2 weeks?

& not much before i was tipsy alr.

Blaaaaa..

My drinking skill sucks so badly now luh !!!!!!

If anyone wanna jio me for drinking,

Plursssie

Martel or Hennessey

I think my body can only hold that bloodyhell liquor better than the others kuku nehneh ones.

Esp that night 50% of vodka,

only a little and i was told de next day that i smiled for no reason vvvvvvv long.

Alone!

Kns, like one idiot liddat.

Sibeh ma lu .

The best part, i have no recollection of it.

Dinner at home was good tonight (:

It felt like ages ago since i stayed hm all day and tasted my mum's ai xin meal.

She has been whining

"How long u haven been sleeping on that bed . " (refering to my own bed)

"How long u haven been tasting my cooking le ."

"How long u haven been ironing for me ? "

"How long u haven been staying at home "

After all the long-winded nagging while i continue to only say "Hanna hanna ... "

she went to bought a new shampoo for my irritating annoying watermelon-the-hard-to-maintain-my-hair the hair after i complained about my recent terrible scalp prob like sudden loadsa dandruff appearing and loadsa hair keep dropping !

Even so, i still have like tons of hair to the extent that it is qualified to said it is THICK !

*shaking my own head.

I really feel like going to salon right away right now to do rebonding or treatment or wadever.

But after rebonding it will look shit cos it will be SO STRAIGHT that it will be so sticky to my face, no volume at all !

And with de fringe now..

After rebonding, it will look just like a mop on my head ==!!

Kns.

So contradicting sia me !

HAHA.

Girls ...........................................................................

Whattodo.

*Listening to canto songs.

That smelly asshole shuanny tan wawa luh.

He filled my iTunes player with all the emo songs.

Making me feeling all so bluey now for no reason.

Maybe there is a reason why i am responding to the sad songs but well ...

"Dun think so much."

I will, as promise.

2010-11-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

4th nov 2010

HE IS LEAVING TO AUS TODAY !

FOR THREE WHOLE WEEKS !!

ALL BCOS OF THE LIGHT GREEN + DARK GREEN + FOREST GREEN TRAINING =x

I WILL CERTAINLY MISS HIM LOADS LOADS IN THESE 3 WEEKS

*cross my little pinkish beating cute cute heart.

WILL HOHO MISS ME MUCHIE AS MUCH AS I DO ?!

*WHISPER*

I can chiong drinking & clubbing alreadyyyyy! HEHEH! ;p

i will miss loving you.

i will love missing you.

2010-10-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

Hehh

I've skipped lesson today, again!

It has been consequently 3 wed & i haven attend that dumbdumb IT mod yet.

T.T~

Scared of codings leh :x

This morning was a groggy one.

I didn't even hear my alarm which normally wakes me up & the fact that i have set it to ring every 5 mins.

In addition, Jon did morning called me & well, failed to wake me up too.

I seriously didn't hear any of them.

Seriously fcup tired.

& once i wake up, i couldn't sleep back in.

my stomach was growling; i was darn hungry! ;P

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A superb song dedicating for you peeps!

♪ ♫ ♩ ♬

I was thinking about ya
I drew a little picture
But some things you can't put on paper

Maybe I'm wrong
Maybe I'm right
Maybe I just let you walk by
What can I say
Maybe I've known you all my life

A sweet surprise
No matter what, she's looking at the bright side
It's gonna be worth it
Cause that's what love is
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect

They say give it time
Give it time and it will fall in line
But I keep wondering how and when
And why I haven't met you yet

I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect

& i have found mine. ♥

we don't really start well

at least we end up well tgt.

2010-10-27T01:36:00.002+08:00

Joke of the day:

Girl 12 years old: Mom billy showed me his penis at school today

Mom: (freaking out)

Girl: it reminded me of a peanut

Mom: Really it was small ?

Girl: No it was salty !

Mom:(passed out)

Credits ~ fb Likelicious.

many things had happened.

i wished i can say everything here but it will be darn hell squeezy and wordy.

overall, i am a happy girl now. :)

THIS SATURDAY!

1) Collecting my passport (weeeeeee~ i know girls, it's like taking me forever hehe ;P)

2) Special dinner at my home(:

THIS SUNDAY!

Hopefully the haze subsided or at least better for a cycling activity at ecp with my love ones! (:

Takecare peeps!

GG TIME :D

2010-10-23T22:12:00.003+08:00

23rd oct '01

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

please please live longer healthily & nag lesser!!!!! heheheh ;P

Initial plan was to dine outside for her bday celebration, but heavy heavy big big rains eventually changed the plan to having steamboat in the cozy home with SUPER DELICIOUS WITH MANY OF MY FAV VOU RITE FOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD :D

i love you mama.

i love you papa.

i love you my family who i often squabble with and watch tv tgt, laugh at the jap funny sports variety show v v v loud in the most super-ly unglam-ly manner, dinner tgt with so many of the talks that can only be spoken at times liddat, and even when i did the most ungrateful, unsightly things, you guys didn't turn me away. Instead, you all missed me when i am gone (having fun) ..

i am glad to be in this family even thou i really hate to be in it at times.

* * *

Yest, 22nd oct.

Met up with my old pals... sissy, moi, xian & jiaying.

Sadly, naz & tina can't make it, i hope they do the next time round ~

As usual, i am late! wahahaha! but not the last oneeeee weeeee..

& moi the belated birthday girl was duperrr hungry sio.

We made her to decide wad she wanna eat, sssssss a result, surprisingly, she choosed to eat at Macs' !

Ate & talked over there.

& they happened to talk about work and hiring of ppl.

& i took the opportunity to told them about one of my problem ive been dying to tell someone but at the same time i dunno how to open the topic and i was well.. kinda embarrassed to talk about it.

1st, it's about my family issue. Not a really good topic to share with too many..

2nd, the burden kinda fall upon me silently just bcos im the eldest.

3rd, i certainly am helpless to do anything... at least not now.

I dun wanna dampen everyone's mood cos we have a belated celebration over here. I'm so so so so so soooooo really am grateful & touched when each of them helped me to think of wad i can do in the (near) future when im out in the society. They are so sincerely enthu about helping me out that i almost burst into tears. But ah ah.

Afterwhich,

we went over to moi's hse for our usual casual gossips and some really good times catching up.

I am truely blessed to have them all.

They certainly proves that the best thing in me, is having them by my side.

2010-10-23T15:15:00.002+08:00

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It has been weeks that i have been thinking to change to a new blogskin.

Reason 1:

I totally hate the font color. If i add in photos, the words r gonna stay stubbornly gray no matter how i change them. How to see those words wif the damn background having the same color!

Reason 2:

I seriously hate the font size. I realize i can't edit the font size or even just bold it. They will appear overlapping or other crazy stuff on other ppl's lappy. If it appear just fine on others, they will appear weird on mine.

Reason 3:

Bored with the background alr.

Reason 4:

My photos can't stand up as nice as other's blog cos they have a plain background while mine wif a complex one.

[i still love those vintage-y background thou.. ]

Been hogging to (www.blogskins.com) for quite a few days.

But all those recent ones sucks to core.

Just awhile ago.. I manage to find a few one that i think it's pretty good luh.

FOUR of them actually.

& i dunno which to choose now! :X

Can some cute/ handsome/ gorgeous/ stunning kindsoul take a few seconds of ur pretty time to help me vote which one is best kkies!

Thanks! hehheh :)

Choice #1: http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=340006&action=Preview

Choice #2: http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=342486&action=Preview

Choice #3: http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=335960&action=Preview

Choice #4: http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=321003&action=Preview

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If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.

2010-10-21T08:23:00.002+08:00

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I've reach sch at a vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv EARLY TIME !!!

weeeeeeeeeee~ Lesson was at 9:15 im alr in sch at 8. How power is that!

Best thing of all, ive went into the wrong class.

WAHAHAHA. =="""

There is this malay guy he was like down there aum chio when i opened the door.

I was still in a daze, stare at him and "Oh."

Sibeh paiseh ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Heng it was still early, not as if the whole class was there.

Super tired.

After sch i still have to acc Yan for the "play of a bad girl role"..

Btw,

i was having flu & headache yest.

So ive skipped lesson, partly due to tiredness HEHHH..

Jon accompanied me to poly clinic for my mc & at night.

I was really sick like having a high fever?

Yea.

Lucky the doc gave me the fever pills even thou i didn't have it at then.

Hmmm his predicament i suppose?

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Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

-Dr. Seuss

2010-10-18T16:26:00.002+08:00

Beenie Man ft. Enur - Whine

Woohoo! Finally !

I have re-new my passport !

Collecting it the next saturday! :)

Hwaiting!

*HY LET'S GO JBBBBBBB

2010-10-13T03:30:00.002+08:00

This photo was taken during my 1st visit to go queue with those crazy fans to see glimpse of kawaiineh korean group; 2AM !!!!!

I swear with my red&black strips panties i'm wearing now that this is my 1st time seeing my idol !!

I have plenty of cos.

But even idol in the past who're a S'porean didn't have much luck for me..

So dun say they are from koreaaaaa!! I was super duper vegetable exhilarating excited de~

The place was insane.

People was acting like lady-gaga; all siao people gathered in one place.

It was an experience! ^^.

my Jo kwon ~~~

HEHH

Random is healthy!

I was flipping thru old photos in my fb and i chanced upon one of my childhood kuku photo!

I was shock & amuse to find out one common stuff about me.

One thing for certain never change since i was young till now .. .. ..

I love eating ..

HAHAHAHHAAHA!

I seriously can chain all my unglam candid eating photo .

2010-10-11T13:19:00.002+08:00

SAT.

was a so-called unexpected un-thrilling drinking session at khatib with my dearest darling & Jon. It should be fun but it seems like our overwhelming 3 days drinking per week has subsided due to our less-frequent drinking & partying.

HY do not surprise me by exclaiming for dunno f.umpteen times that she felt disgusted with the vodka and she's having a headache after only like wad, a few sips or cups? WITH much mixer.. Bcos wad's really terrifying me is that, i felt the same way as she did! Ohf.

& Jon.. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAA!!!!!!!

well well ~

*wink.

i won't forget & i forgive myself for being such a mean mean girl ..

HAHAHAHHAHA!

Putting aside the fact that there has been vvv last minute cancellation lately. I do realize i dun have much craving for clubs as much as i do in the past already.. Ewk!

I won't deny i'm slow.

The realization hits me after like wad.. 5 ppl texting me something like.. "Where are you going party tonight?" or "Which club tonight?" or "Going whr to drink later on.."

& i have been replying, "Nope, at home today."

Of cos, many of them are astonished as much as i do. Believe me, i am shock myself.

Well, surprise surprise!

I always wonder how ppl can quit going to party & having the fun all night, it seems like i got the silent answer~

HAHA.

We shall see how things go for the next few days/ weeks then~

2010-10-09T05:11:00.002+08:00

V e x e d .

I've got 5 modules for the coming sem (supposing only two de..)

Worse of all, one of them is Physics!

Oh my tian ah ~

Physics ehhhhhhh ........ ...... ......

Even worst still, every module starts at a later time, physics starts at 8 or 8:30am, on monday after weekends party!

Worst & worst of everything, it is a year 1 module.

Congrats luh ..

I'll be having more ppl telling me, "You are old." .. "You got the mature aura once you step into the class."

Stress stress stressss

To make myself happier, i've passed all my modules. I think one of my module i've gotten an A or a B grade.

To pop some champagne, I've up my GPA! :)

Still, it still have quite a distance from 2.0 to graduate.

I will work harder de.

2010-10-08T10:55:00.002+08:00

To My Dearest Silliest Darling:

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.

If you want to cry, I'll be your pillow.

If you want a hug, I'll be your kolar bear.

If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.

But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.

Loves As Always,

Jess`ca

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After reading HY's blog, i've been wailing..

Yes, not only crying but pathetically crying ..

I seriously seriously wanted to help her, talked her round & basically worrying about her even when im with Jon but everything seems futile ...

I feel hopelessly hopeless!

I can do nothing but give my bestest shot in advice for her .. Be there for her ..

Yet time & again, time & again, TIME AND AGAIN .. she is saying about death is a better choice ..

I really dun like her saying that, or anyone! That i care & concern about. Ok. not that i dun like it.. but I HATE IT. I hate people around me talking about death upon them.

I feel like scolding her like she'd did when i screwed up things in a childish manner back then & the scolding actually knock me into some sense.

However, on top of everything, she is super fragil and weak right now.

& i was as silly and stupid and dumb as her back then.

Bcos i keep thinking about death will be a better choice for me in the past when i'm at how emo she is at the moment.

I even went to the sea all by myself & almost jump off from the cliff & drown/ get washed off .

Unlike her that she sorta wrote her suicide/ death note on blog, i wrote it down on paper like 4 to 5 pages for my family & leave it on the coffee table .

Darling,

see what i have right now.

Do you see happiniess?

I will not deny that i am a happy girl right now. & if you are really not a selfish person whom i know better than you are that YOU ARE NOT one selfish-monger, you would not wan me to grieve for you & be emo the rest of my life for you.

If you ever ever, EVER, do anything silly, i will not forgive you & break off, immediately.

Do you understand me.

We've been thru alot. & we still are now..

We've only got one life & god probably alr planned everything for us..

Remember, we all stumble & fall, everyone of us.

That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand.

So when you're gone.

You dun go alone.

You left all ur memories in our heart, soul and mind, be it the bad ones or the goody ones.

Stay with me hui yi .

We've made a pact rmb?

A pact about having afternoon high class high tea while gossiping, or having nights out with our kids left at home and blaaaa ..

It might be a joke to you or a anyhow randomness talks, but i've alr carve it in my future memo.

Call me stubborn or childish & i dun care, we have to do all that we've naive-ly talked about.

A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself. ~Frances Ward
Weller

only me

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