I am much more comfortable to be friends with guys. 

I get more tense up when I speak to the girls unless I knew them for ages already. 

10 out of 10. 

I only treat them as a platonic friends and I sincerely hope our casual friendship last forever where we get to say whatever that's under the moon. However, most of the times once they confessed their feelings or they starts to date and brings the girl over. Everything changed. Our platonic friendship starts to weaver. 

Being under the circumstances of getting told off by the girlfriends times to times. I am very aware of my actions and what I say when my platonic guy friends got a girl he is interested in bcos I seriously don't want to stir shit. I don't know why, but shit likes to stir on me itself. 

This time round. 

I am going to be extremely superbly incredibly cautious bcos I like this girl that my friend is interested in and wants to settle with in a serious relationship. Hence, no more nonsense corking up I pray so hard I wanna cry because I made a cuckoo of myself just last few months back about Irene and Yikun. I didn't get to do well on my that particular paper and I failed that only one and I hated myself so much I cried for nights. They do not have to know. They are happily sun tanning their "love" on fb when they left me feeling awful. I have no one but to blame myself for being too nosey and too...... pretty, to be just a friend perhaps. 

My friends always tease about stuff like "too pretty invokes jealousy". 

Well, I would like to clarify. No girl would be comfortable with a girl like me. I feel them. But come on. Even when I swear I have no feel at all. Not even one bit. THEY still feel suspicious. Alright I understand. So I am so gonna stay off the course from Eddie this time so he and Nini can get together :)) I really really wants them to be :)) 

No more testing me. No more.