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nag at her, she yells.
step on her tail, she bitch.
let her go hungry, she bites.
pamper her, she booast.
truely ♥ her, she purrs ;)
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Monday, November 24, 2008
`FEVER.ISH on -18.11.08; tue-
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pon yet again for sch
due to backache + sudden heavy flu..
then in e noon, dear wanted me to acc him to ica
so i jiu agreed lor..
anyway will be staying at hm nth to do; sian..
then mummy will wants me to go help out at fac again.
more sian..
***
dear finally can re-apply for S'pore PR le ^^
n had done all de documentary thingy..
for freaking exp. of 90$
kinda a long wait for dear & everything to be settled.
lucky!
i brought along ah mei's gameboy advance.
haha.. ^^V
after everything at ica..
dear bring me to Newton or Novena for lunch
after getting a more accurate reason,
he wanted to find his long time no see de fren -.-
hmmm
seems like his mia fren really
missing-in-action!
so we settle dwn for lunch..
i was craving for seafood!!
(my fav xD)
but dear insisted to eat something else
cause e seafood there is like can chop ppl's wallet de.
ok lor.
since is he pay..
listen to banker..
lols.
ordered some rather heaty stuff.
only rmb i order one more thing like fried oyster ar?
nice sia..
then off we go..
to wdl points lan shop.
***
in mrt,
i suddenly suddenly felt not really right..
was all so weak and felt hot all over my body..
All of a sudden,
i was getting a very bad headache and giddyness
then i keep achooing as well..
sore thoart starts to worsen..
my whole body like no strength and heavy..
head was like aching like hell..
and i seem to be spinning round and round..
really hate this feeling..
so xing ku..
thot i was too tired
bcause i had been working lately till late hours..
and then i start to feel neauseuos..
feel like vomiting!
and i was still thinking maybe i too tired le..
but i can feel i felt feverish heaty all over as well..
so i lay my whole body on dear
while he is playing dat gameboy advance..
ps: we are standing in mrt.
dear thot i was too tired too..
then he told me to lay my whole body on him,
he will support me..
i still thinking i was tired,
so i only told dear dat i am having a terrible headache.
dear say must be lack of sleep..
so i close my eyes
once i close my eyes,
i slept..
cant believe i actually
standing on my feet sleeping!
i think my head hit dao something or wad..
cause somthing wakes me up..
and i saw we are soon reaching wdl
(finally. from lavander to novena/newton to wdl)
long ride man..
still have to take bus to wdl points..
*making pig snore*
***
wanted to just go back to dear hse to slp,
really felt no strength and headache
but i know dear really so wanting to play at lan..
so i just acc him lor..
at lan shop..
i was sooooooooooo bloody extremely freezing cold!!
i was like trembling
wif my head spinning round round..
not to mention i had 2 ulcer in the same spot!
so torture-able
1st time playing tower defence
wif dear & his fellow frens..
kinda fun! ^^
though its my 1st time,
i dare to say i am not bad sia..
haha..
i was either ranked e 1st or e 2nd
and i must emphasise
its among the guys~
LOL.
:):)
but of course..
have to gain more experience for better!
keep losing at around lvl 27
[><]
the boss/ immune so hard to kill..
***
finally can have my dinner..
at around 12plus going 1am.
i realise i was really sick
so i insisted dear to buy something light for me..
at first,
i wanted fishball mee-cai-bak soup.
but no more..
so i say change to bee hoon de lor..
just pay money nia..
& i change my mind
to porridge..
realising dat bee hoon soup is kinda
oily ):
and i strongly insisted
to have FISH porridge
and not other nehnehkuku porridge..
i was like pleading dear
and trying to act so pitiful
wif my bubbly tearful eye..
dear finally gave up
and buy FISH porridge for me..
lols.
cause actually,
FISH porridge out.of.stock liao..
but i suggest to them to cook wif
fish soup + de rice
easier to swallow as well mah..
bee hoon so loooonng and oily..
PLUS.
i am now a patient.
when im sick..
pls pls
listen to wadever rubbish i say/make/suggest
cause i know wad's best
for my current body
if u reject me or say "NO"
my tears start to swell in my eyes..
u can say i am a cry baby n i dun care..
but when i am sick or hungry
i get rather impatient & short temper and easily flared up.
and ppl die die also have to give in to me..
i dun really noe why..
but ppl,
only when i am DUPER UNWELL or SUPER HUNGRY..
u all also know i am Miss Anything..
so once in a while, let me also nvm bah..
^^
***
ok.
so when we just step foot at dear hse.
his dat small sister say:
"you all 2 hor!"
wad.
then dear's mummy say
MY mummy keep finding me..
so i called back lor..
blablabla ~
then dear's mummy is like complaining
dat she and MY mummy cannot find us..
dear's phone was flat mah..
and my spare phone was spoilt..
and they say we cannot find a way to call back?
ok lor.
next time we will DONG COIN AND HOPEFULLY
can find dao publiphone to call baccckk..
wont forget how
NOT EASY to find publicphone in singa lor..
anyway,
i dat time really damn weak to actually care so much..
after hanging calls wif MY mummy,
dear gave me something..
dunno wad is dat sia,
so i take a closer look..
"eeyer.. u very dirty leh.."
he gave me his toe nail! -.-
wade~
then dear's mummy say
i sure kanna scolded by my mummy..
in actual fact,
no leh..
my mummy
talk to me in a very calm n soft voice..
not like de usual shouting and demanding wan..
upon hearing i am sick..
she sounded so caring and worried..
*touched*
when dear ask me wad my mummy say..
i told him nth much ar.
and dat she tell me to faster go eat my dinner and eat panadol..
i think he isnt convince enuff bah..
then dear's mummy dwn there keep saying
i sure kanna scold liao..
and she keeps nagging at me -.
lazy to say so much, i already like so weak le..
i went to makan dinner myself 1st since
dear is cutting his nails..
soon enuff, he joined me (:
i was really so xing ku until while eating,
i cried as i eat sia..
my tears just drop
and it's hot tears -.-
am i so hot until liddat?
then dear's mummy and dear's sister
keep dwn there talking so loudly
and making fun of dear..
they are always putting dear so low
and i dunno why..
just felt bad and little angry for him though..
and dear just laugh away -.-
even if it's kidding,
i think it's overboard..
his whole family is like making me more xing ku..
wif all de talking and laughing and nagging at me..
my head is getting more pain when they liddat..
and i cannot voice out and shout back
i cant possibly shout
"can u all just shut up or not.."
not possible right?
sigh.
i close my eyes to actually cool myself dwn..
but i get more tired when i did dat..
i realise dat once i close my eyes,
i can just fall aslp
and it's hard for me to open my eyes again..
so i try to stay awake
and eat my porridge..
my steaming tears dropped again..
and i hate myself for being so weak..
so i weep again..
dun really want dear family to know i am sick..
for i know
they also wont do anything much..
so i just ate bit by bit
and cried while eating ..
trying
to be as strong as possible..
cannot tahan wif all de crappings dear's fam had..
i asked dear for panadol
& he dunno where is it and asked his mum -.-
so he mum asked:
"why?"
dear: nth lah..
his mum: for why u want de panadol?
dear: she headache
then his mum directed him where issit lor..
eaten 2 panadol.
cause dear say 1 like not enuff..
i myself also think not enuff..
dear got keep asking me
am i okay am i okay
to say e truth.
i am not ok.
but i just want to faster finish up my 'dinner'
and go into his room to catch a sleep.
i just have a few spoon of porridge..
& i still feel so xing ku..
head is getting much pain..
and my head is like spinnning more..
felt more hot all over my body
and hard to breathe
cause i've got heavy flu (in e morning rmb?)
so i breathe thru my mouth..
i was so afriad suddenly
cause i pant so fast and loud..
then i start to cry more..
wad is happening to me?
dear insisted i go his room to rest le..
later then continue my dinner..
he was like so worry-ing sick..
he fu me back to his room
and carried me up onto his bed..
***
when i lay on his bed.
i felt more hot..
& my tears
keep dropping dwn uncontrollable..
dear went out
to take napkins wif ice for me
once he went out..
everything worsen.
the more i tried to catch my breathe,
the louder i pant
the more i tried to control my body,
the worsen it gets..
and i got cramps..
and then stroke..
Yes.
stroke..
***
i've gotten it once just months ago
when i am having a terrbly high fever at home..
i realise..
my fever is not those teeny weeny ones..
and cham sia..
no one in dat room..
dear is still back in kitchen for the napkin thingy..
his mother n sister in living rm
talking so loudly..
and his little bro was in his mum's bedroom lying..
i tried to call
"dear"
but i couldnt.
no strength at all to even tok!
was so panick lah..
was so sick
and no one attend to me?!?!
i rmb dat 1st time when i had my stroke,
my mummy xia dao..
she faster call daddy out.
n daddy faster call me to breathe slowly..
and help me massage my body..
to actually allow my blood tong..
and mummy keep asking me lotsa qns.
but i kanna stroke on mouth dat i cant speak!
after dat, mummy told me will die if no immediate attend.
sob!
and i am now having stroke
and no one attend!
ps/s:
when someone kanna stroke.
he/she couldnt control their body..
and they will like 'giu'..
meaning staying in a weird body pose, dat they dun want to..
wanna explain cause DEAR DUN REALLY KNOW WAD IS STROKE..
and how serious it is!
omgomg!
when dear back..
both my hands, my legs and my neck got 'giu' tgt le..
he was like keep asking me
"how are u how are u"
"MASSAGE ME!!"
i exclaim
after realising he didnt really know e meaning when i say stroke
and didnt know wad to do!
when massaging,
he still say,
"why ur fingers liddat, relax, dun liddat.."
argh!
stroke is liddat de!
as if i want my finger to 'giu' tgt meh!
*banging head on wall*
at first,
he didnt realise my fingers 'gui' tgt..
so i told him to massage my fingers..
cause its more serious than my leg..
n he went to massage my leg.. -.-
me: my fingers.. massage my fingers..
(dear still continuing massage my leg)
dear: here ar?
me: my fingers.. *starting to get perk up*
(still massaging my leg)
dear: here? better?
me: MY FINGERS MY FINGERS MY FINGERS! MY FINGERS ALSO CRAMP LE!
dear: okayokay!! dun have to shout!!
HELLO!
ah dear!!
i say mannnnnny times in a nice way and trying my best to control my temper and patient
liao..
BUT U THIS ALIEN DUN UNDERSTAND!!
so i have to shout!
IN panick!!!
cause u didnt know wad to do!!!!
and my stroke will get worsen if u dun do so!!
and it's already lucky that i still can talk!!!
and telling u wad to do!!
*fainting*
but i understand dat he is super duper worried sick for me..
and he is panicking as well..
cause i keep crying too..
so he's like not really in a very gd mood -.-
but i am more panicking than him lah..
he is like really really dunno wad to do lor..
sigh.
and then i say massage my neck,
he massage my head!
and all the panicking shoutings goes again..
wad a communication breakdown lor..
damn scary..
thot i gonna die
due to this alien, didnt know wad i talking..
and he didnt know how to treat one fever patient lah!
i so worrried freaking out liao..
so i told him to call my mum..
she knows best.
i know he this alien hor..
sure wont say i got fever until stroke..
instead,
he will say one big round and nvr say de point..
and say all those nonsense thing..
so i remind him.
to straight away say i got HIGH fever now..
until i got stroke on hands, legs and neck..
in e end..
just as i expected..
he goes around the bush -.-
i can die anytime
wif the untreatment stroke and
not well treated fever lor..
Grrr...
i shouted to him to JUST SAY THE POINT.
and he got pissed up.
hais.
he is liddat wan..
***
after finally hanging up..
he say my mummy
told him to bring me go see doc immediatly
and have a cold shower..
ok.
***
cause both my legs stroke liao..
cannot even move..
so dear decided to carry me..
b4 dat,
cause we r going to be out..
and i am wearing denim mini skirt,
he took his black shorts & help me to wear..
and dear didnt even bother to close the room door.
he just lift up my legs n help me wear -.-
really still cant even stand wif my own feet.
dear carry me out of room..
his dat small sister in living room using her lappy.
so paiseh lor
then dear put me down so dat i can wear my footwear.
i immediatly gonna fall cause
I AM STILL HAVING STROKE on leg!!
cant he understand and forgets in a moment?!
*wanting to take knife and kill myself*
so he say nvm, dun wear..
and he carry me up again..
wif his sister staring at -.-
when closing hse door,
he sis nvr even come help lor..
and dear was like already so xing ku carring me
while locking hse door..
when want to press lift,
i wanted to help press cause i see dear so xing ku carrying me..
but eventually i failed.
was still having stroke on hand -.-
i cant even press a button!
in lift,
dear complain dat he always told me to lose wt liao.. -.-
i really dat heavy meh?
but i can see that he really carry me until so xing ku..
lols.
just out of his building nia
and he was like panting and sweating all over..lolx.
he carry me until
i got 2 'orh chair' on legs..
***
DO NOT FORGET!
that i am wearing a mini skirt..
he was actually carrying me wif my legs facing out!
and out on street..
cars was zooming past
and i can sense dat every cars past,
ppl inside is looking at us!
i am 'zao geng' until cannot liao..
dear flag taxi..
of course, dat time is like 1am++ le..
only realise dat when im in de cab.
dear put me dwn again..
forgetting i am still having stroke on leg..
and i was once again falling off almost immediately.
taxi uncle know something is not right too..
cause he asked: do u need any help?
ok.
i feel like and look like a handicapped now..
went to nearby clinic..
dear thot dat wan is 24-hr opening,
reach there, out of taxi, bo open.. closed.
so he put me dwn again..
forgetting again ~
and set me to sit on hdb stairs..
while he call to his frens and daddy
ppl walk by and like looking at me..
hais.
really want to dig a hole to hide.
after deciding where to go next,
dear carried me again..
and he wants me to hold his phone to his ear for him..
cause he is talking to his fren halfway -.-
i tried my best
to hold de phone lor..
and it's all so alien-ly weird.
cause he is carrying me,
wif my miniskirt facing ppl,
wif de black shorts inside,
wif me holding phone to his ear,
and the black shorts is showing out at de back.
and and..
i didnt wear any shoes on..
though i am sick..
i am fully well aware of how i look!
cause ppl just keep staring!
dear scold me dat im sick le still want to care about how i look -.-
flagged another taxi
for next clinic..
and dat taxi uncle say a:
"good morning"
i ji dao sian ~
but we 2 still say a "gd morning" back -.-
***
in the cab,
dear keep asking me many qns.
i am sick.
so dun disturb me.
no mood and most imptly,
dun have the strength to ans back..
so i just stone dwn there..
and dear keep probing me wif qns.
somemore my head still spinning round round
@_@
and i know where lot1 nearby clinic is..
so i directed dat taxi driver..
dear insisted to drop us at lot1 there -.-
have to walk quite a distance lor..
from lot1 to dat clinic
somemore he is carrying me now..
harder to reach there..
i insisted a "no no, uncle, just go straight up.. its infront.."
lucky i am firm enuff wif my words
and sound rather confidence..
after finally getting to dat womens clinic
which is lucky to be 24-hr opening
we finally 'kan dao' doctor..
and it's a guy -.-
thot it is wriiten as womens clinic outside; double -.-
nvm.
is doctor jiu hao..
anyway
all my face had been thrown by dear liao..
and when that doc is listening to my heartbeat,
he is pressing so hard on my right breast
that i choke a little..
i thot my heart is on the left side,
why is he pressing on e right? zzz~
then he checked my throat,
and told me it's very swollen-ly red.
yar.
this i know.
cause i can feel de ache-ness.
and he didnt told me my temperature
where normally every doc will tell de.
so i asked:
how much is my temperature?
after asking i was like lols?
"how much?"
lolx. sound funny..
he say:
38.7 degrees
i think i am much higher than just 38.7 back there when im at dear hse lor..
cause dat time like no immediate treatment
dear still worrying about my stroke.
he xia dao le..
lols.
so he asked about doc about it.
doc say its nth.
he say i must breathe slowly, cannot breathe fast fast..
then out of clinic,
dear warn me
cannot breathe so fast, must breathe slowly..
i know his intention..
but..
i am having heavy flu mah..
PLUS,
my alien dun understand wad i want dat time..
and he dunno wad to do..
and i nervous i will just die because he dunno..
and so i panick..
and SO i breathe harder..
that is why ~
and dear say:
hanna.. i also jing zhang mah.. u xia dao me leh..
lols.
silly cute boy.
though alien-nated,
but i like..
lolx.
sometimes,
i really dunno i should be angry wif him or laughing at him..
***
he took so long to pay de medicine..
i dunno why..
and still feeling headache and head spinning
and my body so heavy still..
i jiu lay on the clinic's sofa..
so..
comfortable..
closed my eyes
and had a little short nap.
minutes later..
dear shake me lightly and say we can go le..
i was like..
har.. have to go liao~
i want orh orh ~
[><]
so dear carry me again..
but i climbed down..
cause my stroke is recovering..
and i can walk le..
more strength on legs and hands liao..
have been leaking my 'chun guang'
from marsiling to wdl to admirlty to cck
sob!
enough of all the
showing-of-my-beauty-royal-leg to people le..
somemore i got many frens at cck..
i didnt wear my spec sommore..
sakali later suddenly someone shout,
yu jing!
dat time really jiu omg have to dig and hide le..
***
taxi taxi again..
finally back to dear's hse..
and showered..
hmmm..
dear bu fang xin i shower alone..
PLUS,
i have to cold shower?
so he help me
wif the showering part as well..
when the cold water set on my body..
i tell you..
i am freaking playing hide-and-seek..
and dear is so angry
he thot i purposely dodge away and making all nonsense..
but i really cannot take cold shower mah~
all along since young i take de is warm shower okay..
and my warm to others is actually hot.
my fam is always saying
i am having sauna inside..
lols.
cause whenever i am out frm e shower rm,
the mirror will be blurred,
and there will be even steam coming out..
lolx.
i see him so tiring and pissed off,
i be a strong girl lor..
so i suggest squating down,
allowing him to put freezing water on my body
from my hair..
cause i thinking if i squat dwn ar..
water flow easier and FASTER over my whole body..
lolx.
seems dat i am right!
haha.. :D
after dat,
i faster dry clean myself..
if not i sure achoooooooooooooooooooo
but like too late.. -.-
i still keep having the ahchooo
not once, not twice.
but many many many ah chooo ~
sobs.
until my whole nose red..
and dear accidently worn e shirt
that is suppose to gimmi wear de -.-
***
took medication.
and doc advise us to only take de fever medicine
after 4 hrs.
cause i took le panadol earlier on
so dear set le alarm at 5am..
he say gonna take care of me...
and he next day still have to work ne~
[><]
i cant sleep,
cause still feeling rather fever-ish..
cant sleep well.
but dat alien pig already slept so sound asleep liao..
still say want take care of me..
still say he not sleeping, have to watch over me -.-
ur patient haven slp leh..
si alien pig.
ok lah..
today quite a long day for him le..
plus
he kept carrying the heavy-to-him de me..
he must be bushed out..
***
not long after i finally slept..
dear's hp ring,
thot wad.
yuan lai is 5am le..
i wake dear up..
thot he gonna 'delly dally' like usual time..
but once i say:
ah dear, 5am le..
he immeditely pop out of bed
and went out rm to take medicine for me ^^
that moment..
i felt so relieve & xing fu :)
he kept his promises ^^
i closed my eyes again..
while waiting..
then he is back in a moments time..
with a cup of loving warm water and my fever medi..
was so happy that i gave him a peck of a kiss on his forehead
& say a
thank you ^^
he was super tired to response anything..
so he just gave me a tired smile.. :)
and he slept back.
i look at him for awhile with a little moonlight beaming in under the curtains..
i softly kiss his forehead again..
and i kiss softly on his cheek..
then to his nose..
then down to his mouth..
surprisingly,
he kissed me back..
i thot he is asleep le?!
lolx!
felt a little paiseh but touched at e same time..
we say a warm goodnight
and he hugged me to sleep..
ah dear..
thanks for everything.. ^^
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time now:
3:59am
ps/s/s:
later have to schooling le~
ps/s/s/s:
this entry is specifically written in memorable for dear & i
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SOMETHING TO SHARE ABOUT!
i am fond of design & arts..
& im so in love by this artist's work..
forget his name le.. and forget his .com
had this pic saved in my documents for a vvvvvv long time.
can see what it is?
lols.
It's a buddist monk burning himself..
art created
by using the matchsticks..
the .com comes with a video as well..
they got show how this artist created this
and show
him lighting up the matches
on the top of the white color matchstick; the 'smoke'
& it beautifully burn itself..
cause all is matchstick ..
and the viewing effect really do look as if the monk is burning himself.
good imaginary.
good work.
good art.
i like! :)
♥♥♥
xoxo
11/24/2008 12:45:00 AM