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On mon, 20th.
After Dear went to ICA,
he seems to disappeared.
I called him several times,
but failed to get to him.
I waited until 12am+,
then i called again but failed again.
When i called again at 1am+..
i start to get REALLY worried.
4am+ reached,
still no contact wif him since afternoon at ard 5pm+.
I called again.
Still no ans.
(have a very bad feeling it's about the immigrant thingy. Dear cannt stay in s'pore le mah?)
Went inside audi to help me forget about all de bad stuff.
Misa was de only one inside.
Talk to her.
All about Dear.
]:
Hard to fall aslp.
I just cant stop thinking of him.
On tue, 21st.
When im back frm teaching Rulan
the facilities module.
I saw Dear 'nudge' me in msn for 3 times.
I put "?"
No reply for a very long time.
While i am rushing for my CE pts,
I was already anxiously finding vian.
then Dear finally reply me in msn.
He say:
"I got bad news. You want to know?"
Duh.
No matter it's bad news or gd news,
I NEED TO KNOW.
Just nice.
Joey is back frm her lunch.
She say Dear called her just now.
And Dear wants me to call him back.
But finding vian was already a headache for me.
And is much impt..
at dat point of time.
when i finally got thru vian..
Joey kept persuading me to call Dear back 1st.
So i call him.
to hear wad he has to say.
To say de truth..
i really really
dun want to hear any bad news frm him
Especially when i am still in sch.
For i knew
i couldnt concentrate,
and will start crying.
Dear told me dat he..
Have to return back to M'sia.
He couldnt be a S'pore PR anymore.
When he is back to M'sia on nxt tue,
he couldnt go to any country.
Cause both S'pore & M'sia citizenship
had been cancelled.
It was really a BIG BLOW TO ME.
i didnt noe how to react.
So i just told him:
"Orh. Okay."
And i hang up.
Feeling super confused and really really dunno wad i should do.
I heaved a big sigh..
and went dwn to find vian.
On e way dwn..
My mind dun listen to me.
I kept telling it to stop thinking about him!
But it just dun listen.
Many happy moments wif Dear appear in my mind.
And my tears started to swell in my eyes.
Finally found vian.
Borrowed hp frm her.
to call dear..
He say de same stuff earlier on.
and to add on my worries.
He asked me,
"If i am not around, can u take care of urself?"
How am i suppose to ans him?
i dunno.
Tears did drop.
I rubbed away as fast as i could.
Didnt want anyone to noe dat
i am not okay.
On our way back to class
for our laptop.
i keep thinking towards the bad direction.
to the WCS
worst-case-scenario.
if Dear
really really have to go back to M'sia.
I dun want him to be back to S'pore.
i will want a break up
if he has to go back.
His grandma will be introducing
really really pretty girls to him.
and i will wish him e best.
i am not thinking too much.
Because his grandma really did introduce gals that she thinks is much prettier than me
to Dear.
when i am there sumore..
ppl always seperate
when they dun like each other anymore.
or wif many other reason.
But we r becuase,
gov. rules doesnt allow us to be tgt.
I was thinking more& more absurd things.
and i felt really really
upset.
Finally
breaking dwn..
i ran to toilet.
Crying silently.
When on e way back to class.
i cried again.
I JUST CANT STOP THINKING!
Joey & Regina
then comfort me and
gave me suggestion.
They are pretty cool when handling things liddat.
they suggest me to go to ICA website
and check.
So on tue when i acc Dear to ICA centre,
i can rebark back.
i can say that
Dear had already stayed in S'pore for more than 10 yrs.
Plus, Dear had already served his NS.
He had already contributed so much to S'pore.
It will be unreasonable to kick him out of S'pore.
There must be a way..
to re-apply his PR citizenship.
SUddenly..
everything seems to be brighter &
i felt lighter.
A gleam of hope is beaming.
THAT,
is wad i thot.
I really went to ICA website.
and i found these.
The above Eligibility criteria all failed FOR DEAR!
SO i check about his NS thingy.
this is e only supporting evidence to make him stay in S'pore le..
ANd..
1st thing 1st.
Money.
I know he is always having family financial crisis.
if he have to re-apply.
im sure Fees doesnt escape.
because S'pore is a FINE country.
was worrying his fam will just put him in M'sia tgt wif his grandma..
because of this.
NEXT!
the processing time for the applicants is
Freaking avg of 3 mths!!
so even if he can re-apply for PR citizenship..
Dear will have to be in M'sia for
3 mths or plusplusplus!
omg~
wad is this!
3rd thing.
NS liability..
Under e 3rd paragragh.
it stated very clearly dat,
they will renounce/ loss their PR status
w/o completing full-time NS
this was quite a relief.
AT FIRST.
so i further check in their ICA website.
it also stated very clearly dat,
completing full-time NS meaning..
serving their re-service which lasted when Dear reach e age of 40 or 50!!
my head shouted.
WHAT?!
Seeing the last paragragh.
i am more worried.
"Male ex-Singapore Citizenships and ex-Singapore Permanent Residents who are granted SIngapore PR status are liable to be called up for NS regardless of the type of PR status they are granted."
WHICH MEANS WAD!
when Dear had served his NS in s'pore,
he will be called up
and to continue serving s'pore?
EVEN when he is not a PR citizen in s'pore?!
i am really starting to get
worried again.
At night,
i waited for Dear's call..
He didnt called,
so i did.
when he picked up,
i auto angry.
Cause he is happily playing DOTA wif his fren
@ lan.
WHEN I AM SO FOOLISHHLY WORRYING SICK FOR HIM!
i felt such
an idiot.
i hinted him tons
to stop playing anymore.
and settle current prob.
But he just didnt take it
seriously.
When i am still angry,
i heard him shouting..
"Can win de lah.."
& bla bla bla about his DOTA thing to his fren!
then he say,
"Darling, sry lah.. i not purposely wan to make u angry de."
wad is all this bullshit?
i cant stand it.
so i hang up his phone.
EXPECTEDLY,
he scold me for hanging up his phone.
and we quarrel again.
Everything just happens so fast.
and i suddenly say:
"I want to break."
and things got worse.
he scolded me.
After dat, he seems to agree to my request.
And we both say "byebye"
He say "byebye" in a nonchalent tone as well.
this got me worried.
(why am i always worrying?)
i went for shower.
to cry.
when im out of shower rm.
i immediately call Dear again.
he refushed to pick up.
think i called many many times
dat i nvr did in de past.
i also msged him
many many times.
Not expecting any reply frm him from my MANY sent msges.
because i noe.
he had changed.
to someone who is not him.
unlike de past.
I 'please' misa to help me call him.
and to call his hse as well.
only reply is..
"Auda ar.. He nvr pick up. His sis say he is not at home."
nvm.
expected de. ^^
when dear finally calls back.
he sound..
happy.
& i dunno why.
then everything seems ok.
so i say i wan him to come my hse..
because i really want a hug from him.
after all this had happen.
but in e end.
he couldnt come.
He is always giving me
disappointment.
Taurus is indeed one,
an enduring animal.
[:
when he couldnt be able to come my hse as promise.
he didnt call to inform me as well.
when i called,
he say he gonna find de hse key and secretly went out.
But when we hang,
he say 'gdnight'
at 1st,
i thot i heard him wrong.
& even bluff myself dat he will call back to tell me whether he found de key or not.
Disappointed.
he didnt.
and he went to slp.
i actually waited
and always believing.
that he will call back to inform me.
4am.
Still no response frm him.
e nxt day.
he called in morning.
but i was still aslp.
he called again later on,
i told him i still want to slp.
so at around 4pm when i finally wakes.
i called him back.
i asked him about watching movie
that he promised me to bring me go watch.
the day b4.
Disppointed again.
he say couldnt make it le..
Nvm.
not e 1st time le..
i think
i have to get use to all this disappointment bah..
then he promised me to come my hse today,
but..
EVentaully,
he couldnt make it as well.
Because he gonna work until 10pm.
reach his own hse at about 11pm.
so i told him not to come my hse.
because it will be too late.
To say e truth,
i really..
Really want him..
to come over.
But i dunno why,
i seem to be always lying to him.
when i dun mean it.
Nowadays,
i always does so.
he say not to bluff him,
because he really will not come over to my hse.
But i still say,
"Yar."
He..
Didnt know wad i really want mah?
